有時覺得自己根本完全被看透了,
有時又想情況沒有自己想像得那麼糟,
更確切的是, 根本就沒有人像自己這樣關心枝微末節的定義吧.
對大部份的人而言, 早早就進展到下一章了不是嗎?

其實已經進行到下一本書了呢?
卻有著回頭翻弄的習慣.
一本早已讓你厭倦的書, 扔得不知所蹤,
卻時不時有些懊悔沒有至少翻到結局.

所謂未知的誘惑, 連美好都稱不上.
在洗去過期洗髮精空瓶 (連過期與否都是以當時發生的事件連結判斷)
不經意地製造了滿盆泡泡,
雖不致誇張地說激起了縱身而入的衝動,
但是著實喚起了溫熱安心, 知道自己身在何處的簡單幸福… 的記憶.

百思不解, 何復僅存記憶?

With my eyes closed, edging my head towards you
until our skin gently touched.

I smelled Osmanthus.

There was no actual scent present, rather,
it was a piece of memory somehow linked to the lush, yet innocent fragrance.
The brain perceived no difference.

I saw the vastness of green, with hints of clear blue sky through the cracks.
I could barely keep my eyes open, for vivid sunlight proclaiming summertime.
And then I saw the delicate, tiny flowers that are so easily to be ignored,
and the sweet scent that invites, not just invites, but allures and hypnotizes.

I kept my eyes shut, lingered in the moment,
with you.

I’m so easily rankled by such things.

I thought about the chance that it’d ever mean anything to me some day.

I threw it away.
It landed on its back, feeling nothing; or so I suspected.

I’m inclined to keep every little thing. Almost a hoarder. But in recent years I’ve been learning. Learning to let go of things and I can say I’ve improved quite a lot. Throwing away things that sort of have sentimental value but basically are trash is one. Thank goodness, or unfortunately(?), we rely heavily on technology nowadays and not much is tangible anymore. We can simply delete, or leave the stuffs there without acknowledging their existence until the drive dies or the service become unavailable. Like the email addresses of youth we no longer recall, those ridiculously amateurish websites that only exists in some obscure cache, and the private or public blogs that recorded our love once so strong.

But goodbye, little frog. Not that I have a strong feeling toward you; it’s just that I don’t have any feeling toward you.

Outstanding Drama Series
“Boardwalk Empire” (2010)
“Dexter” (2006)
“Friday Night Lights” (2006)
“Game of Thrones” (2011)
“The Good Wife” (2009)
“Mad Men” (2007)

Outstanding Miniseries or Made for Television Movie
Cinema Verite (2011) (TV)
“Downton Abbey” (2010)
“The Kennedys” (2011)
“Mildred Pierce” (2011)
“The Pillars of the Earth” (2010)
Too Big to Fail (2011) (TV)

Outstanding Lead Actor in a Comedy Series
Alec Baldwin for “30 Rock” (2006)
Steve Carell for “The Office” (2005)
Louis C.K. for “Louie” (2010)
Johnny Galecki for “The Big Bang Theory” (2007)
Matt LeBlanc for “Episodes” (2011)
Jim Parsons for “The Big Bang Theory” (2007)

Outstanding Lead Actor in a Drama Series
Steve Buscemi for “Boardwalk Empire” (2010)
Kyle Chandler for “Friday Night Lights” (2006)
Michael C. Hall for “Dexter” (2006)
Jon Hamm for “Mad Men” (2007)
Hugh Laurie for “House M.D.” (2004)
Timothy Olyphant for “Justified” (2010)

Outstanding Lead Actor in a Miniseries or Movie
Idris Elba for “Luther” (2010)
Laurence Fishburne for Thurgood (2011) (TV)
William Hurt for Too Big to Fail (2011) (TV)
Greg Kinnear for “The Kennedys” (2011)
Barry Pepper for “The Kennedys” (2011)
Édgar Ramírez for “Carlos” (2010)

Outstanding Lead Actress in a Comedy Series
Edie Falco for “Nurse Jackie” (2009)
Tina Fey for “30 Rock” (2006)
Laura Linney for “The Big C” (2010)
Melissa McCarthy for “Mike & Molly” (2010)
Martha Plimpton for “Raising Hope” (2010)
Amy Poehler for “Parks and Recreation” (2009)

Outstanding Lead Actress in a Drama Series
Kathy Bates for “Harry’s Law” (2011)
Connie Britton for “Friday Night Lights” (2006)
Mireille Enos for “The Killing” (2011)
Mariska Hargitay for “Law & Order: Special Victims Unit” (1999)
Julianna Margulies for “The Good Wife” (2009)
Elisabeth Moss for “Mad Men” (2007)

Outstanding Lead Actress in a Miniseries or Movie
Taraji P. Henson for Taken from Me: The Tiffany Rubin Story (2011) (TV)
Diane Lane for Cinema Verite (2011) (TV)
Jean Marsh for “Upstairs Downstairs” (2010)
Elizabeth McGovern for “Downton Abbey” (2010)
Kate Winslet for “Mildred Pierce” (2011)

Outstanding Supporting Actor in a Comedy Series
Ty Burrell for “Modern Family” (2009)
Chris Colfer for “Glee” (2009)
Jon Cryer for “Two and a Half Men” (2003)
Jesse Tyler Ferguson for “Modern Family” (2009)
Ed O’Neill for “Modern Family” (2009)
Eric Stonestreet for “Modern Family” (2009)

Outstanding Supporting Actor in a Drama Series
Andre Braugher for “Men of a Certain Age” (2009)
Josh Charles for “The Good Wife” (2009)
Alan Cumming for “The Good Wife” (2009)
Peter Dinklage for “Game of Thrones” (2011)
Walton Goggins for “Justified” (2010)
John Slattery for “Mad Men” (2007)

Outstanding Supporting Actor in a Miniseries or Movie
Paul Giamatti for Too Big to Fail (2011) (TV)
Brían F. O’Byrne for “Mildred Pierce” (2011)
Guy Pearce for “Mildred Pierce” (2011)
Tom Wilkinson for “The Kennedys” (2011)
James Woods for Too Big to Fail (2011) (TV)

Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Comedy Series
Julie Bowen for “Modern Family” (2009)
Jane Krakowski for “30 Rock” (2006)
Jane Lynch for “Glee” (2009)
Sofía Vergara for “Modern Family” (2009)
Betty White for “Hot in Cleveland” (2010)
Kristen Wiig for “Saturday Night Live” (1975)

Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Drama Series
Christine Baranski for “The Good Wife” (2009)
Michelle Forbes for “The Killing” (2011)
Christina Hendricks for “Mad Men” (2007)
Kelly Macdonald for “Boardwalk Empire” (2010)
Margo Martindale for “Justified” (2010)
Archie Panjabi for “The Good Wife” (2009)

Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Miniseries or Movie
Eileen Atkins for “Upstairs Downstairs” (2010)
Melissa Leo for “Mildred Pierce” (2011)
Maggie Smith for “Downton Abbey” (2010)
Mare Winningham for “Mildred Pierce” (2011)
Evan Rachel Wood for “Mildred Pierce” (2011)

Outstanding Variety, Music Or Comedy Series
“The Colbert Report” (2005)
“Conan” (2010)
“The Daily Show” (1996)
“Late Night with Jimmy Fallon” (2009)
“Real Time with Bill Maher” (2003)
“Saturday Night Live” (1975)

Tue
2000 FOX Glee* 9/20
2100 FOX The New Girl (so cute >////< Zooey Deschanel) 9/20
2100 CW Ringer (twin thriller) 9/13
2130 ABC Apartment 23 (Krysten Ritter (L))
2200 ABC Body of Proof* 9/20
2200 CBS Unforgettable 9/20

Wed
2000 NBC Up All Night (Another baby drama!) 9/14
2030 NBC Free Agents (US remake of UK black romance comedy) 9/14
2030 ABC Suburgatory (Jane Levy’s cute but that’s it) 9/28
2100 ABC Modern Family* 9/21
2200 ABC Revenge (inspired by The Count of Monte Cristo) 9/21

Thr
2000 CBS The Big Bang Theory* 9/22
2030 CBS How to Be a Gentleman (David Foley’s grown so fat Q_Q) 9/29
2100 NBC The Office (James Spader) 9/22
2100 FOX The Finder (spin-off of Bones)
2100 CW The Secret Circle (witches witches) 9/15
2130 NBC Whitney (hmm…) 9/22
2200 NBC Prime Suspect (police procedural, Maria Bello. Toby Stephens!) 9/22

Fri
2000 CBS A Gifted Man (Jennifer Ehle! Patrick Wilson) 9/23
2100 NBC Grimm (the last Grimm!!) 10/20
2200 CBS Blue Bloods* 9/23

Sun
2000 ABC Once Upon a Time (Fairy tales) 10/23
2100 CBS The Good Wife* 9/25
2200 NBC Pam Am 9/25

NBC First Look
Awake (so touching and intriguing)
Bent (Amanda Peet, sorta meh..)

Summer Cable:
USA Suits
TNT Falling Skies
Franklin & Bash

It is beyond control; I hover afloat watching myself rise and fall and sway against the wave that is people passing by without a slightest intent of injury.

Until.

Then the poetry is lost. Turns into something raw and magical and beautiful.
Something transient.

I think back to a time when I was green in judgment, cold in blood, and realize I’m still green in judgment; yet, perhaps, colder in blood.

you listen to Round Here over and over and over and over and over again
suddenly realized the overjoyfulness was a preamble of this overwhelming rush of dejection
that you know all so well

nevertheless you feel so alive and desperate at the same time
everything is unforgivably gloomy in this sunny sunny day
you doubt not yourself; the universe is at fault

and with futile effort you grasp the air and wonder
where the boy’s gone who once said to you, “grab onto me tightly as if I know the way.”
where did they all go?

fragile fragile words fell
without making a sound.

The ideal man should talk to us as if we were goddesses, and treat us as if we were children. He should refuse all our serious requests and gratify every one of our whims. He should always say much more than he means, and always means much more than he says. He should persistently compromise us in public, and treat us with absolute respect when we are alone. And yet, he should be always ready to have a perfectly terrible scene whenever we want one. And to become miserable, absolutely miserable at a moment’s notice. And overwhelm us with just approaches in less than twenty minutes. And be positively violent at the end of half an hour, and to leave us forever at a quarter to eight when we have to go and dress for dinner. And when after that, one has seen him for really the last time, and he’s refused to take back the little things he has given one and promised never to communicate with one again or to write one any foolish letters, he should be perfectly broken hearted and telegraph one all day long and send one little notes every half an hour by a private hansom, and dying quite alone at the pub so everyone should know how unhappy he was. And after a whole dreadful week, during which one has gone about everywhere with one’s husband just to show how lonely one was, he may be given a third last parting, in the evening. And then, if his conduct has been quite irreproachable, and one has behaved really badly to him, he should be allow to admit that he’s been entirely in the wrong And when he has admitted that, it becomes a women’s duty to forgive. And one can do it all over again from the beginning, with variations.

XD

Read it on Guardian today.
It’s quite interesting as I myself have experienced it one time too many.

The following quote is especially true and amusing. :)

Their prose’s rhythms and vocabulary wrap around my subconscious, leading me to produce these daft approximations whenever I sit down and try to write for myself. The results are generally frustrating. It’s annoying to lose your own natural voice. It’s even more infuriating to realise that the pastiche sentences you’re writing are nothing like as good as the originals.

在歷史上有許多名人 (實際或虛構) 佩帶過 Witchblade, 它可帶給佩帶者強大的能力. 然而它會選擇自己的主人, 並只限女性, 冒牌者戴上 Witchblade 只會招來滅亡. 傳說中埃及豔后, 聖女貞德等人都是 Witchblade 選中的佩帶者. 而影集中的主角 Sara Pezzini 是 NYPD 的菁英謀殺組警探.

第一季除了一開始步調略慢之外, 整體來說還不錯. 打鬥場面常常有慢動作, 而且有點講究意象, 但我想那就是十年前的呈現手法. 裡面的角色各有特色, 連陰森森的 Ian Nottingham 都莫名其妙地讓人喜愛. 但反派就有點討厭, 那種討厭不是讓你恨得牙癢癢的討厭而是讓人很不耐煩. 第一季的 finale 放了個大絕, 直接影響了第二季的走向. 因此第二季看了幾集下來, 還是覺得怪怪的.

雖然不是個很完美也不怎麼緊湊的影集, 但我還是可以稍微看得津津有味, 我覺得我真是越來越不挑了. 不過等下個月開始忙起來雞肋都可以丟掉了 (像是Body of Proof. 以及一些就真的只有沒東西看時拿配飯吃的價值的 basic cable 影集.)

但繼 L’Occitane 的 The Vert au Jasmin 之後, 我又愛上一款有茶香的香水.
Anthropologie 的 1856 Darjeeling by Adriana Medina, 是 Anthro 出的一系列 A Rather Novel Collection 之一, 盒子外型做得像一本書, 正正合我胃口啊!

Notes: bergamot, cardamom, chamomile, mint / jasmine, orange blossom, rose, tea / cedar wood, amber, musk.

另外一瓶最近還蠻喜歡的是 Emilio Pucci Vivara, 瓶身很醜, 我平常根本不會注意到它. 某日在 Sephora 有人試完之後說了一聲 “too citrussy”, 我聽了便跑去試試. 在試香紙上聞起來很清新, 就像那人說的非常 citrussy, 但一接觸到我的皮膚馬上變成一種淡淡甜甜的暖香, 有種剛沐浴完的感覺. 很有趣.

Notes: Italian Bergamot, Amaretto, Sambac Jasmine, Narcissus, Indonesian Patchouli, Iris Butter.

你也許不知道, 今天(5/9)是 Eeyore 的生日. 而大家忘記 Eeyore 的生日總是讓他非常非常沮喪. 一般來說小豬會送他一顆氣球, 維尼會送他一個空的蜂蜜罐子. 不過呢, 今年可是這隻陰沉驢子的一百四十歲大壽 (真的是很老!) 我想我們應該給他個驚喜, 慶祝這位了不起的文學人物的誕生.

小熊維尼的故事已經是我們生活的一部分. 我們小時候讀小熊維尼, 長大後也念給自己的小孩聽. 小熊維尼中的每個角色都非常惹人憐愛, 但 Eeyore 在我們的心中似乎佔有個特別的位置. 我們無可自拔地被他吸引, 因為我們體認到他陰沉的個性中非常符合人性的部份. 他的哀傷就像是我們的哀傷. Eeyore – 一隻平凡驢 – 代表我們每一個平凡人.

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Who wouldn’t wanna kiss a Mark Ellis look alike? (I totally would.)

No offense Will (Estes), but for me, you’re my TV version MaEl. (At least you’re not the balloon artist version MaEl whom I came across the other day at a dim sum restaurant.)

But I have to admit, that girl who grabbed and kissed Jamie (Will Estes) was as cute as a button. And they do look great together. I’m drowned with envy.

To quote Michelle Pfeiffer in Grease 2, Where can I get one?