I recently realized that I value surprise quite very much. Not the bad kinda surprise (those are unwlecomed malicious shock) of course, but something like… birthday surprise. That’s why I’ve always liked to plan surprise birthday/farewell/etc parties for my friends. In college, we always like to act light on those events (but we wouldn’t pretend that we’ve forgot it at all, it’d be too artificial), and then an unexpected cake or present would show up with a blink saying, “hey, we didn’t forget about you! (and we value you very much.)” But sometimes I feel that I’m a bit 本末倒置。Cuz I’m a “surprise” person; therefore, I’m kinda sensitive towards these stuffs and my expectation often goes too high. And I sometimes omit that it’s the heart rather than surprise that counts. It doesn’t always have to be a surprise. (Especially when we all know what to expect. It would be rather awkward to plan/pretend not knowing a surprise.) I should shift my focus, or it’s quite unfair for my beloved friends :p
Anyhow, I still appreciate a nice surprise very much! (The one I keep talking about is the flowers and a card I found mysteriously sitting in my dorm from my sis who was in another city when I came back to dorm in midnight 3 yrs ago.) I’m not blaming people don’t give me surprises… it’s just that… I’m actually kinda a surprise-ruiner ^^” (my own surprises of course, I dont ruin other people’s surprises… I plan them remember! :p)