I am Your Sunshine

Recently (recent years, to be exact), I’m often commented as a person who “knows” how to live (productive or not, we can leave that for later discussion, or even better, just drop it :p) But it worries me sometimes (very rarely though) that I’m only an epicure while I’m living in a world where a pure epicure is not necessary a phrase of complement.

Sometimes, I do feel like a pure epicure. I mean, I don’t like work. I work to sustain my emjoyment. I enjoy every single beauty in life, grand or pristine. One might say, who doesn’t. Oh ho ho… that’s so wrong. For some people, work is their enjoyment, and sadly for some, if I can so judge, they can’t find enjoyment in any aspect in life. However, whenever I think of doing nothing but the things I like, I enjoy, like great food, concert, musical, books, clear and cool afternoon under the sun, and a spendid nightview plus a glass of whatever tastes good, nothing but those, I cannot consider actually doing it. Aside from the fear that I won’t be able to sustain myself , it’s shameless to rely financially on mommy when one’s 20 something and working (well, to do is one thing, but to think about it is like blasphamy XD), my biggest fear is actually that I might get bored with those, like I’m always warned about. How terrible it’ll be. Always play it safe like me, won’t possibly take that chance. (and now back to the old subject, without risk, the best you’ll get is mediocrity.)

And there’s another thing, I dug right down to the bottom of my heart and I felt …. well, that’s something I’m not gonna share here.