I am Your Sunshine

莊敬自強 不然還能怎樣？

It’s the current board name of Chelsea FC. It’s half bitter and half encouraging. However, when I came across it just now, it seemed to me a pretty good New Year’s Resolution. (新年新希望. or 舊希望, whatever.)

If 2005 was a year of adjusting and struggling, 2006 was one of fulfilling and trying new things. It was, of course, filled with some procrastination, wandering, and information ingesting, too. 2006 was also a year of finding balance. I’m always in the search of balance. I’m born without it and I long for having balance of everything. It’s so easy to get lost in life’s all kinds of mesmerizing wonders. It’s important to reflect once in a while so that I know what I’m doing and where I’m heading. Mom was worried. She said I seemed to be doing all the right things, making all the right calls, being on the “right” track, but still something didn’t fit quite right. I was like a changed person even though the changes seemed to be good, it unsettled her. I wasn’t sure either. Uncertainties kill. It’s tough. But that’s a part of life that we have to deal with. I’d rather face it than hide or run away. (Oh, no. actually I’d prefer hide and run away, but you only live once.)

So, what’s my new year’s resolution? I didn’t bother to make one last year cos 2005 was way too frustrating. And it sounds so lame to me now. 2007 is neither unreal nor struck me hard. From 2006 to 2007 was only a second before and a second later. But the change of number does affect some people in some ways. I can totally understand it. Like some panicked when turning 25, some felt old all of the sudden after crossing a year to another and thus wanna get married right away. However, it does give us a reason to review our life and renew our plans and goals. Why not?

It’s year 2007. I wanna live a better life in all aspects.
(okay, I know I’m saying nothing. But it’s time to go home. Horray! TGI Friday!)