Can you feel good and bad at the same time? Bad, not guilt. The heart is not stable. It’s a sort of physical panicking going on. Maybe it’s mental, or maybe caffeine should be cut down. Or perhaps it’s the side effect of reading Wallflower and I just think and feel too much. (And do too little. Oh yeah.)
Everytime this feeling hits, I tried to fight it. It’s become more and more easily for me to regconize it and once it’s identified, I can try to distract myself or cheer myself up. Hard, though.
Wow, as I was writing this, something dropped in my mail box and there were two packages. One, from the package, I knew it’s the CD I bought on eBay and the other is from J, again. I wondered what it was.
Took me some effort to open it, it’s sealed completely XD
and it turned out to be a bigger than life size JT in black Euro away shirt poster!!!! SWEET! I love this photo of his. I’m instantly cheered. :D