A’s fever, but the A’s has really let me down and made me down. :(
I need to get myself together and be ready for Chelsea. And maybe give A’s and myself a break… like Roger did.
I had dreams in which I heard the broadcaster saying something like, now Kielty batting (I have nothing against this recently released from DL DH), swung and missed; ground-out; fly-out; strike-out; double play…those phrases, the frustration built up not only in reality but also in dreams, very much qualify as nightmares.
My “poor nerves” are like that. (And darn, did the A’s have any compassion on my poor nerves? No, they didn’t. And nor did Chelsea, don’t grin at the corner and thought I didn’t see you guys! We all remember how you were notorious for being “bad for the heart”.) Whenever I’m too into one thing, it occupies the whole of me, and I’d go up and down along with it.
I’m like that. I can’t help but wonder if it’s in fact that I need something, or even someone, to exhaust my overflowing energy inside my mind to an extent that I’m really, completely exhausted. And how funny is it if it’s really so. I’m knowingly trying to fill the “hole” in my life with all kinda nonsenses (sports, fictional characters and etc) that I know all along what it should be filled with. I just can’t help it. All of these just happened by themselves or well, I allowed them.
I know it looks silly to be so upset over these things, but I also think that for some people who take these lightly and laugh at those who don’t don’t really understand the heart and soul of these kinda passion and in fact are missing out a lot. Some people are obsessed with the numbers and only care for “the best“, and when “the best” doesn’t live up to their expectations, they just turn away and look for another. It’s not my way of loving, okay if you wanna argue, obsessing over, something.
I was telling myself not to, but eventually couldn’t resist the bench clearing video link on MLB.com. I watched what happened in the 7th inning. Blanton is still young and has a lot to learn. And everyone has different level of tolerance toward how a person acts out of frustration. Some said Blanton should act smart and try to get a interfering call and some said they won’t fault Blanton at all for losing it. I don’t have problem with either view. I just know that I HATE all Mariners right now.
Seriously, I gotta get myself outta baseball a bit. Time to watch Valencia 1-2 Chelsea game, which… err… is a nerve-wrecking one as well.