I feel so stupid for having wasted 4 years on failing or barely passing classes and seemingly not learning anything academic. I’m not saying that I should have studied hard back then. (I’m not saying that I don’t cherish all the moments I spent there with those people I love either.) However, if I could have used that time to have fun (like I had) and at the same time work my ass off and earn some money (if I could. I don’t think it’s not practical.) and study when I’m older, relatively, like now. Cos I have so much better understanding of things now. Give it literature or math or anything, I venture to say. As I was reading my 8-year-old Set Theory text book right now, I was really able to appreciate the simple yet complex beauty of it. I liked the idea of it back then, even though it took me three tries to pass the course. But I am able to settle myself and take in what’s there now. And there are subjects, such as economics, that I wouldn’t think of familiarizing myself with when I was younger and narrow minded. The order of things the society has made for the general public is at least not right for me.