Leaving California
Apr 28th, 2009 by Ashley
the sun is poisonous to the soul
the forever sunniness forces us to create clouds, dark & moist cloud within us because the law of conservation of mass dictates that all things have to remained balanced and bitterness grows just to keep things in check. it is the natural order of the universe. I’m pulled further and further away from this wonderful being I used to love, and hate, but love undoubtedly more.
but we all know it’s the misleading and cheating consensus that breeds the venom and we, as unfortunate creatures subject to infinite status anxiety, repeatedly fall over the lies. we embrace the laws and put on our disguises and try always and forever to be entertained at our leisure. we try so hard. we never stop and ponder whether we really want to and need to be entertained all the time, cos no one never teaches us to. what do we really really need? what is it that our soul is forever seeking and longing? the time is gone. just like that. whether you chose to happy or angry. like that. gone.
perhaps it doesn’t matter to some of you. but as a person who doesn’t care about the length of life, who long has forsaken the silly thought that “i’d be gutted, had i left the world without going here and there, doing this or that”, i don’t want to take the time i’m given lightly and I surely don’t feel it would give me joy just to fulfill the steps that the world has lay out for me, the lie of “work, vacation, work, vacation.” no sir, no thanks.