Half Time(?) Review
Jun 4th, 2009 by Ashley
As the coming of June almost draws the half year mark of my brand new path, which, though, was prefigured long long time ago, I revisited the choice I’ve made and am continuing making, and I contemplated upon my fogged future. As I came across the job listing posted by Taco’s soon-to-be-former company, low paid as it is yet promised an interesting job responsibility (and most importantly, something that, to me, matters) in a friendly (as Taco often speaks of) work environment, I couldn’t help but rethinking the decision I made 5 years ago – not to spend another 6 months or so to take the joint degree of MI and MLIS, which is understandable as I was completely dried up by the graduate project and honestly not capable of real grad school works, partly because I wasn’t hard working enough at all. Another part of it was that I’d been a student for all my known years without really having the passion for studying. I realized then that I enjoyed being a student, the liberty and little responsibility that comes with, rather than “studying”. Granted I love learning, yet only when it requires no effort on my part. Thus, I decided to go on with my life even though it pained me much to face real life responsibilities and rendered me panicked and lost and confused in the world which seemingly filled with infinite opportunities yet none destined for me. Looking back, I think I’ve made a right decision since I wouldn’t be able to learn things properly back then anyways. It’s just a pity that I don’t have a MLIS degree that may place me better in the world that I’d be happier in.
Having studied English at De Anza for a little short of two quarters, it never ceased to intrigue me as I once feared. I was afraid that it might afterall be another one of my fantasized means to escape the cruel, real world in which only money and scheduled vacation matter. On the contrary, the more, though relatively very little, I learned, the deeper I realized that to study English, in a grander scale, the Humanities, is in fact to study “everything”, which has always been a passion of mine. I now come to the decision point, which I set for myself at the beginning of this journey, of what my next step would be. I have a few options in mind, which doesn’t involve anything about going back to the IT field.
the rest of this, I think I’ll keep to myself for now.
:p