Arbeit!!!!!!
Jan 7th, 2005 by Ashley
Shirley , our engineer vp, came to pay a visit just now, so I didn't finish last post and I've lost
the feeling so nevermind.
What she told me was creepy, but all that I said was “yes…yes…” and noded. I'm such a chickenshit, but
I don't wanna make anybody feel uncomfortable (so I only made myself uncomfortable… I'm gonna run
away some day – not too far.) Aside from programming for intranet, and doing some network
administration, which is not 100% what I oughtta do with my fabulous MI degree, but acceptable,
she told me that I should get my hands on development…. Gosh, this is not an “Information Specialist”
do, is it? I'm not an engineer! Not a bit! If I were to be an engineer, I'd have studied EE or CS. Now,
what's going on!?
I feel so awkward. I want my control of my life back! I'm definitely not going to be an engineer, never!
I really should've study literature ro something like that… then there's no way people can land their
hand on me. Just talking…(I AM grateful for what they offer)
I'm just afraid that I'll accidentally lose my life in this. Creepy.