I am Your Sunshine

Shirley , our engineer vp, came to pay a visit just now, so I didn&#039t finish last post and I&#039ve lost
the feeling so nevermind.

What she told me was creepy, but all that I said was “yes…yes…” and noded. I&#039m such a chickenshit, but
I don&#039t wanna make anybody feel uncomfortable (so I only made myself uncomfortable… I&#039m gonna run
away some day – not too far.) Aside from programming for intranet, and doing some network
administration, which is not 100% what I oughtta do with my fabulous MI degree, but acceptable,
she told me that I should get my hands on development…. Gosh, this is not an “Information Specialist”
do, is it? I&#039m not an engineer! Not a bit! If I were to be an engineer, I&#039d have studied EE or CS. Now,
what&#039s going on!?

I feel so awkward. I want my control of my life back! I&#039m definitely not going to be an engineer, never!

I really should&#039ve study literature ro something like that… then there&#039s no way people can land their
hand on me. Just talking…(I AM grateful for what they offer)
I&#039m just afraid that I&#039ll accidentally lose my life in this. Creepy.