I am Your Sunshine

I was asked to do something creative!
Did you see the light shining in my eyes!?
Man… I dont know it can be this fun as an IT engineer!
I have to rethink about changing my runway…

All we had was just one summer
Two lovers strolling in the park
But like they say the world keeps turning
As the leaves were falling we should fall apart

Now I’m waiting for the winter
To build my castle out of ice
And deep inside there’s a massive building
Theres a crystal lake of all the tears I’ve cried

[Chorus]
Baby for all my life,
Don’t you know that it’s true
I’m living to love you
So baby don’t think twice,
If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart and do what I do
Cause I’m living to love you
I’m living to love you

When you’re gone, it’s not forever
Cause you’re remaining in my heart
So tell me why I feel this aching
Every time I think of you when we’re apart

[Chorus]
Baby for all my life,
Don’t you know that it’s true
I’m living to love you
So baby don’t think twice,
If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart and do what I do
I’m living to love you, yes

I admit that from time to time
I’m feeling insecure and think I’m gonna lose my mind
Don’t let it show, no
No, no-no-no, no, no
I don’t think I’ll ever understand
That our love should never have a happy end
So I’m really gonna try my best to let you know
To let you know

(Baby for all my life)
(Don’t you know that it’s true)
I’ve been knowing it’s true
(I’m living to love you)
I’m living to love you
(So baby don’t think twice)
Think twice
(If you feel what I feel
Trust your heart, do what I do)

When the final day comes I know the angels
They will see my smile
And if they wanna know the reason
I will tell them why

Baby for all my life, ohh yes
I’m living to love you

Smart kids can get a lot out of books… but you don’t really get it until you’ve had to crawl through the mud a few times. Literature simply becomes richer after you’ve been fired , rejected, stranded, or had to change a few midnight diapers.

很多東西 真的是要經歷過才會明白
你可以用想像 或者也許以為自己知道
但到真正地經歷過人生的酸甜苦辣高低起伏深刻的膚淺的
你才忽然發現 自己以前並不是真的了解
這時候 以前看過的聽過的東西 忽然被賦予了新的意義
又多了一扇窗被打開 風景或好或壞 卻總是多了一些東西在生命中

嚇死我了

剛剛在 EAseries 板看到 Emmy 入圍名單
又說星期四晚上(那不就是今天嗎?) 會播… (好啦我眼睛脫窗沒看到是入圍典禮)
我就想糟糕, 都已經跟人家約好了, 難道我又要告訴人家說 “Sorry, 我忽然發現我得看電視…”
因為很驚慌 所以動作反而變慢 好不容易搞清楚 原來頒獎典禮在九月!
ㄟ… 真是, 害我那麼緊張是怎樣 竟然還有兩個月

不過今年的入圍名單真是一點也不令人興奮耶
除了變胖的帥哥 James Spader之外, Marcia Cross 是理所當然入圍 愛死她了!
其他的嘛 我實在沒感覺

常常有人說 計劃跟不上變化

計劃的太遠 往往真的到了那時候 早人事全非
只牽扯自己的事就已經時常如此
若計劃中還有別人 更是難上加難

當初她眼光看著未來
私自想著, 當他生日時要如何如何
沒想到的是 他們在他生日之前就不再往來 形同陌路
這是她當初始料未及的

她的故事 若說浪漫 那必是與王子的那一段
然而那段除了浪漫 還掺了莫名的可笑
而他與她的故事就像九點半檔了 可以說非常戲劇性

扯到這些 是因為今天 我又想遠了
不可捉摸的未來 總是讓人想控制 卻又害怕

也許是太奇怪的關係
因為我們往往閃避一些東西 一些話題
而也因此不夠直接 很多時候要用猜的用揣摩的
這樣理論上是會造成一些問題

人際關係有時真的很複雜呢

Heard this on Virgin Radio. Yeah, I turned back to the arms of Virgin Radio again. The lyrics’ kinda intriguing ;)
Feel somewhat similar to Cake’s Mexico.

(Mike Scott)
I pictured a rainbow, you held it in your hands
I had flashes, but you saw the plan
I wandered out in the world for years, while you just stayed in your room
I saw the crescent, you saw the whole of the moon

you were there in the turnstiles with the wind at your heels
you stretched for the starts and you know how it feels
to reach too high too far too soon
you saw the whole of the moon

I was grounded, while you filled the skies
I was dumbfounded by truth, you cut through lies
I saw the rain dirty valley, you saw Brigadoon
I saw the crescent, you saw the whole of the moon

I spoke about wings, you just flew
I wondered I guessed and I tried, you just knew
I sighed …but you swooned!
I saw the crescent, you saw the whole of the moon

with a torch in your pocket and the wind at your heels
you climbed on the ladder and you know how it feels
to get too high too far too soon

you saw the whole of the moon
the whole of the moon!

Unicorns and cannonballs
palaces and piers
trumpets towers and tenements
wide oceans full of tears
flags rags ferryboats
scimitars and scarves
every precious dream and vision underneath the stars

you climbed on the ladder with the wind in your sails
you came like comet blazing your trail
too high too far too soon
you saw the whole of the moon

我知道我這個月花錢花很兇 (因為一直出去玩)
不過跟上個月一比 還是狠狠地嚇了我一跳
現在連月中都還不到 但已經花的比上個月全部花的還要多了 :X

我還發現了一件事, 就是我得感覺還蠻對的
五月時我也覺得花錢花頗兇
現在一比較 還真的看得很出來
正常一點的, 一個月約花350~420 (Mar, Apr,Jun)
五月花了六百多, 我想這個月會更多
其實 還算花得甘之如飴 至少我知道花到哪去了
不是莫名其妙錢就用了一堆
只是有點擔心會不會花太超過
可是我很不會理財啊… 我不會算~

今天 我又體會了一個成語
夢寐以求 這個成語 再也不只是用來形容想要的程度
而是真的作夢都會作到, literally 夢寐以求.

這種感覺還蠻有趣的不是,
很多東西 很多說法 往往只剩下形容的意義
可是當初人家發明這種說詞的時候
卻是真有那樣的現象才會那麼講
如今人往往是繞了一圈 學會了 偶有機會才會體會

其實今天”體會”的不只這麼一個成語
我還體會到了”日有所思夜有所夢”
但這個對我來說是家常便飯
我覺得”日有所思夜有所夢”根本就是精神衰弱的好聽說法

Slough
Come friendly bombs and fall on Slough!
It isn’t fit for humans now,
There isn’t grass to graze a cow.
Swarm over, Death!

Come, bombs and blow to smithereens
Those air -conditioned, bright canteens,
Tinned fruit, tinned meat, tinned milk, tinned beans,
Tinned minds, tinned breath.

Mess up the mess they call a town-
A house for ninety-seven down
And once a week a half a crown
For twenty years.

And get that man with double chin
Who’ll always cheat and always win,
Who washes his repulsive skin
In women’s tears:

And smash his desk of polished oak
And smash his hands so used to stroke
And stop his boring dirty joke
And make him yell.

But spare the bald young clerks who add
The profits of the stinking cad;
It’s not their fault that they are mad,
They’ve tasted Hell.

It’s not their fault they do not know
The birdsong from the radio,
It’s not their fault they often go
To Maidenhead

And talk of sport and makes of cars
In various bogus-Tudor bars
And daren’t look up and see the stars
But belch instead.

In labour-saving homes, with care
Their wives frizz out peroxide hair
And dry it in synthetic air
And paint their nails.

Come, friendly bombs and fall on Slough
To get it ready for the plough.
The cabbages are coming now;
The earth exhales.

(Read this on The Office series one DVD box)

因為加菲貓 結果我想到了頑皮豹
然後我就想到了大二那年生日
你們送了我一隻幾乎是真人大小的頑皮豹娃娃
而且還是在高微課上拿給我的
於是他也跟著聽了兩節的高微
那時我還頗擔心石至文會問說那是哪來的

之後 頑皮豹也跟著我住了三年的女二
因為他太大隻 而我床上東西已經太多 所以他沒有陪我睡
但他抱在床的柱子上 守護著我們寢室 一守就守了三年

我不記得搬出宿舍帶走他時是什麼心情
但我知道 那晚我在車子快開到台北時
才忽然很遲鈍地領略到大學生活就這麼結束了 沒有回頭
那時… 我似乎哭了

轉變的很快

應該可以算是好的轉變吧
患得患失少了很多
開開心心的 盡興就好

今天開車上班時忽然想到
“得之我幸不得我命” 不就是我之前一直想說服自己的文言說法嗎
古人講話真的是簡潔又一針見血耶!
而我竟然如此後知後覺也真是可笑

最近我常常對某些以前就知道的東西產生感觸
或者說, 最近我終於能真正體會那些東西
像是一些歌詞, 老掉牙的格言如上…
很多東西 我一向明白他們的道理
那不知道 原來真正體會時 會是這樣的深切而鮮明

其實我就是那種需要三不五時被人家鞭策一下的人
上周大老闆”激勵”了我一下 從那時起我就超認真的工作
其實這樣感覺很好, 很充實

不是說我之前都不認真啦
只是前一陣子忙完了比較大的project之後
我就懶懶的, 覺得可以休息一陣
然後不小心就休息頗久 (態度wise)

像現在這樣, 積極地做事,
沒有心理障礙地一天到晚跑去找老闆討論事情
其中還是抽點時間整理自己的思緒
真的很不賴啊 ^^

做了個開心的夢 開心到讓我馬上清醒 @@
醒過來之後發現我竟然維持著昨晚入睡時的姿勢
可見我昨天有多累…~

(昨天先抱著抱枕左臉側睡, 沒兩下又換成右邊側睡, 醒來時似乎是一動也沒動過.)

最近真是越來越覺得流行音樂的神奇
怎麼聽 每首個裡就是會有幾句話講到心崁裡似的

If it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad.
If it makes you happy, then what the hell are you so sad.

如果那讓你開心, 那一定不會糟到哪裡去吧
如果那讓你開心, 那你幹麻那麼難過!?

是啊… 如果那讓你開心, 那你不就是開開心心的嗎?
可是是有這樣的事存在沒錯啊
讓你快樂讓你哭
就像 “這是個最好的時代, 也是個最糟的時代” 一樣
一個東西是可以同時具有兩個極端的特性的

啊~ 不就像我一樣嗎!

用打的就太超過囉

用講的我還可以裝作沒聽到
我是對文字很敏感的人啊!!!!

你你你你…你什麼? 我啥都看不到~

is ….

I was always crazy on my own.
but I do get crazier sometime

Now I realize that there’s a link between the two
getting up early and being close to you

不小心看到了 Closest Thing to Crazy 的部份歌詞
勾動了我心中某些東西
於是我找起她的歌　連同之前聽到的一些歌也一起找了出來
都還蠻好聽的!
像是 Das Gefuehl, Juli 的歌, 還有一些 country

這兩天中了Katie的毒　滿腦子 The Closest Thing to Crazy
於是今天早上想說把最近喜歡聽的歌寄給自己
(因為之前某人這樣做　所以我就想 嗯　就這麼辦
而且以往傳到台灣的 ftp 再抓回來實在有點繞路)
把歌選一選 rar 起來之後寄到 gmail, 卻怎麼也寄不成
我想　該不會是檔太大了吧
於是我又把它分成兩個 rar
還是不成

我就很認命地開始傳到台灣
好不容易傳了一半　我忽然看到桌子上躺著的 MP3隨身碟
……………………………
我是在白痴什麼 ~_~