I am Your Sunshine

To take pics of my room!
難得整理乾淨 :p

昨天油又快沒了 剛好去Milpitas剪頭髮
於是就順道到一向是最便宜的USA加油
開到那邊才發現… 2.83
哇咧, 那不是跟前天在Cupertino那邊的Chevron一樣
可是沒辦法, 別的地方搞不好更貴 忍痛還是加了
加了 15.3 L 花了USD43.15 太可怕了吧

想想不久前我還會因為加油一次花USD30而唉唉叫
不知不覺間 加一次就要40幾塊了 ><

在電影院看到預告片時就很期待這片
同時又很疑惑… Transporter “2”, 那 1 呢?
我怎麼一點印象都沒有
去查了一下才發現原來是2002年舒琪有演的那部
其實當初有稍微注意過 但興趣沒有大到讓我跑去看 後來也就漸漸淡忘了
相對的, 這次的 Transporter 2 一開始就吸引了我的注意力
每次看到預告片 都覺得好想看!

暑假真是動作片的天堂
我發現我沒看到什麼有劇情的東西 哈
是挺過癮的沒錯啦…
不過想看點劇情片還發現沒有咧

其實有點無聊
要訂還是訂經濟學人好了
但是呢… 經濟學人裡面大概有一半的東西是我不愛看的
再說吧

今天中午十一點多時yo忽然跑過來 “打球!”
我才想到 對耶 今天公司幾個人找去打羽球
我好久沒打羽球了說 最後一次應該是大四時吧
所以昨天他們提的時候我超興奮地說要去
結果今天完全忘了這檔子事… 穿了一身完全不是要去運動的衣服
不過… 我運動穿牛仔褲也不是第一次了 XD
這麼難得能打羽球 當然還是要去囉!

打了大約一小時吧…
牛仔褲不是什麼問題 反正我本來就很靈巧 哈
但那雙休閒鞋真是快要了我的命 (比昨天溜冰的爛鞋是要來的好一點啦)
打到一半我實在很想脫鞋打… 可是, 嘿嘿 形象要顧
只好委屈我可憐的大拇指啦

打打球跑來跑去流了點汗 感覺真不賴 這才叫運動嘛 ^^
好想再打唷~~

不過很不好意思的是, 他們都不大好意思對我太狠
殺球都殺到我partner那裡 (Roland不小心殺過來還會跟我道歉說^^”)
而也因為他們對弱點心軟
我跟偉恩同一組的時候, 我們就贏了 XD

I dont know what’s closer
but the words “thing you hold dearly and in vain” are like stabbing my heart
how sad it is
how helpless it is
how … vain

也容易放棄…

好吧, 是我自己這樣

琪說的真是對
我是感覺無敵遲鈍的傢伙
人家在機場分別時哭得亂七八糟
我卻是在回到家幾天後才覺得難過不捨

同樣的
也許昨天的衝擊一直到今天才發酵吧
i’m such a *beep* idiot

I’d say to you….
we’ll have to put protecting ourselves the first priority.

and i still remember what he said,
it’s not cute at all if you prevent yourself from getting hurt

but… to hell with being cute
it’s moer important to be alive, isnt it?

on my profile on wretch, i wrote…
Dislike: business, idiots, drama queen

but i seem to be one hell of a drama queen

between this?
can I have that? afterall?

Maybe I should drop you at your door
Or leave tonight and vanish up the shore
Anywhere but here

It’s three o’clock we’re driving in your car,
you’re screaming out the window at the stars,
“please don’t drive me home!”

Blame us because we are who we are
Hate us because you’ll never get that far
And who’d suppose you would go?
I’ve already learned enough to know

Tell me all the places we could go
And count the headlights passing on the road,
a long, long time ago

Here we are
Foreign to their world
Straight and composed
Your sermons I can do without
and I finally found
That everybody loves to love you
when you’re far away

Could it be we’ve done something wrong
we’d make it back to your place before dawn
“Please, don’t take me home”

除了 A Lifetime 之外, 發現 Better Than Ezra 其他的歌感覺也很不錯
尤其是歌詞 總會碰觸到某些地方 好一陣子無法自己

And the morning light was breaking
Slowly moving across the bed
He gets up without her waking
To the voices in his head

Through the shadows in the hallway
To the room they painted blue
And on the inside he is frightened
At a loss for what to do

Until he opens up his eyes
And the angels all look down

Even closer than this life
Closer than your faith
Closer than the things that you hold dearly
And in vain
Closer than this life
Falling through again
Giving more than anything
That you could hope to win

And he knows his life is changing
It’s never easy letting go
For the first time you are mortal
As the child before you grows
And he wonders at the sight
Of the joy that he has found

Even closer than this life
Closer than your faith
Closer than the things that you hold dearly
And in vain
Closer than this life
Falling through again
Giving more than anything
That you could hope to win

And what would you intend to find?
Solitude? your peace of mind?
Holding out for something less
Than touching the hand of god?

Even closer than this life
Closer than this faith
Closer than the things that you hold dearly
And in vain
Closer than this life
Falling through again
Giving more than anything
That you could hope to win

Closer than this life
Closer finally
Living for the only thing
You ever made complete
Oh, for the one thing
That you both did perfectly

but still i need to remind myself
becuz it’s so easy to forget that you dont really need to feel hurt
you dont need to stay in this suffering
you can actually walk out of that door without hesitation
and remember how horrible he described it to you
he didn’t really say much, two words are powerful enough:
“Rememeber Rohde?”

I was instantly chilled.
No way, i dont wanna be a pillar of salt. Not for this, not for anything.

As i said over and over, I’m in this strange state (of mind?). And now I’m desperate to get out of it. I can’t stand myself being so confused that I’m not sure what to think and what to do. I can’t make a decision cuz I keep changing my mind everyday. They all have trade-offs one way or another, and I’m a person who wants to have ’em all.

I have to think it thru and make up my mind. Life cant go on like this. You gotta make some decision some day, why not make it now? At least you can have your peace of mind, right? It’s actually not that hard. You’re tired of it, so you leave. It’s that simple. Dont be deceited that it takes time and space. No. It actually can be just a snap of fingers. Painless as advertised.

今天忽然又開始咳一點點了
天啊 >< 我是廢物 :~

沒什麼特別的事

但是… 也許就因為這樣吧
我想跳出現在的狀況
真是無趣 又令人困擾

confusing 真是最討厭的狀態吧

自己決定的
就閉上嘴 安安靜靜地承擔

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