I am Your Sunshine

1 oz. Gin
1 oz. St-Germain
1 oz. fresh squeezed grapefruit juice
Piece of cucumber
Squeeze of lime

Muddle cucumber. Add rest of the ingredients. Shake and strain over ice. Garnish with cucumber.

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2 oz. Gin
1 oz. St-Germain
1 oz. fresh squeezed grapefruit juice
(1/2 teaspoon sugar)

one part Pear Vodka (Grey Goose La Poire)
one part St. Germain

shaken with ice

wiki

Sunday
900 CBS The Good Wife (9/29)
900 NBC Believe (mid)*

Monday
800 ABC Dancing with the Stars (9/16 cast revealed on 9/4)
800 FOX Almost Human (11/4) *
830 CBS We are Men (9/30)*
900 FOX Sleepy Hollow (9/16) *
930 CBS Mom (9/23 Allison Janney) *
1000 NBC The Blacklist (9/23 James Spader!!) *

Tuesday
800 ABC Agents of SHIELD (9/24 Whedon)*
930 ABC Trophy Wife (9/24 Bradley Whitford) *

Wed
900 ABC Modern Family (9/25)
900 CW The Tomorrow People (10/9) * ??
930 CBS The Millers (10/3) *

Thr
800 ABC Welcome to the Family (10/3) *
900 NBC Sean Saves the World (10/3 Sean Hayes)*
900 CW Reigh (10/17) *
930 NBC The Michael J. Fox Show (9/26) *

Fri
1000 NBC Dracula (10/25) *
1000 NBC Crossbones (mid John Malkovich)*

* new show
bold wanna watch

熱鍋, 些許橄欖油, 爆香蒜末洋蔥丁
米下鍋, 稍微翻炒 (1 cup)
米都油油後加入白酒 (at most 1/2 cup), 翻炒至快乾

add warm lobster broth, cook in low heat

lobster meat, butter

pepper, salt, parsley, cayenne pepper… etc

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熱鍋, 些許橄欖油, 爆香蒜末洋蔥丁
米下鍋, 稍微翻炒
米都油油後加入白酒, 翻炒至快乾
丟入funghi 及泡funghi的水(if applicable), 加入高湯
煮煮煮
加點奶油加點起士(這次用的是 Fontinella, 好臭, 所以只加了一點點)
加胡椒
結果還不夠軟, 重新回鍋, 但因為覺得怎麼用那麼多高湯,
所以又丟了快一杯(正在喝的)白酒下去, 加上再一點高湯
又丟了之前鍋子放不下的節瓜 (剩下三片無法一起煎就切丁丟燉飯裡)
煮煮煮
總算夠軟了吧.

心得:
* 酒跟胡椒加太多了 XD
* 菇可以再加更多!
* 一開始就用奶油炒香好了
* 媽媽給的貴鍋真好用!
* 可能要再加點鹽
* 怎樣才會更香呢?
(* 有人洗碗真好啊~~)

I believe in the good in people;
I also believe in the evil in people.

However, I believe that everyone is capable of evil (thoughts, not necessarily actions);
it seems that not everyone is capable of good.

I’m not counting performing acts that are considered good, or pretending to be good.

We have a medical term for it.

I’d like to know if there’s someone who is really incapable of evil.

Not that it really offsets the ones that are incapable of good.

“If you hide your ignorance, no one will hit you and you’ll never learn.” – Ray Bradbury

“We foster, we obfuscate, we rationalize. ‘Everybody does it.’ That’s what we say. So we come to occupy a moral safe house where everyone’s to blame so no one’s guilty. I’m to blame. I was wrong.” – Jed Bartlet “The West Wing s3e10 H.Con – 172”

(*re-watch)
9
Truth in 24(2008)
Senna(2010)
Equilibrium(2002)*
The Dark Knight Rises(2012)
Lucky Number Slevin(2006)
Argo(2012)
Skyfall(2012)
8
The Artist(2011)
The Little Mermaid(1989)*
In Bruges(2008)*
The Ides of March(2011)
The Avengers(2012)
Carnage(2011)
Ted(2012)
Conversations with Other Women(2005)
Rabbit Hole(2010)
Secretary(2002)
Robot & Frank(2012)
The Hunger Games(2012)
A Dangerous Method(2011)
Looper(2012)
Men in Black 3(2012)
Marnie(1964)
Safety Not Guaranteed(2012)
Hitchcock(2012)
The Man from Earth(2007)
Total Recall(2012)
7
Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy(2011)
50/50(2011)
The Fall(2006)
Brazil(1985)
44 Inch Chest(2009)
Tower Heist(2011)
Man on a Ledge(2012)
Lost in Translation(2003)
Jeff, Who Lives at Home(2011)
The Bourne Legacy(2012)
Shakespea Re-Told: Much Ado About Nothing(2005)
The Invention of Lying(2009)
Vicky Cristina Barcelona(2008)*
Iron Sky(2012)
Intolerable Cruelty(2003)*
6
In Time(2011)
Papadopoulos & Sons(2012)
A Royal Affair(2012)
5
Kiss Me Deadly(1955)
The Expendables(2010)

well, this is sad. :\

1. 黑夜旋律 By 譚劍
2. 情路9號 By 原田舞葉
3. 島嶼謀殺案 By 林佛兒
4. 心中鑲著龍 By 白石一文
5. 美國老爸台灣媽
6. 魔幻廚房 By 林詠琛
7. The Hunger Games By Suzanne Collin
8. 咖啡和香水 By 彭順台
9. MCITP 70-663 Exam Ref: Designing and Deploying Messaging Solutions with Microsoft Exchange Server 2010 By Orin Thomas
10. Catch Me By Lisa Gardner
11. Catching Fire By Suzanne Collins
12. The 7th Month By Lisa Gardner
13. Rules of Civility By Amor Towles
14. The Sense of an Ending By Julian Barnes
15. 守護天使 By 上村佑
16. 思考的藝術 By Rolf Dobelli

I’m in a mood and condition for wine. Reds, specifically.

None of the reds I have, I can bear to open.
Now that I think about it. I’ve been saving them for when I have someone to share them with, but I never did have that someone. :\

And I don’t know why I keep buying dessert wines. I don’t seem to ever want to have dessert wines, even though they’re quite pleasant.

After much consideration, I think I’ll have William Knuttel. At least I know where to get more of those.

Current stock:
Reds:
2002 Robert Mondavi Stags Leap Dist Cabernet Sauvignon
2004 William Knuttel Cabernet Sauvignon
2005 Caprice Cabernet Sauvignon
2005 Stag’s Leap Cabernet Sauvignon
2005 Imagery Petit Verdot
2007 Deux Amis Petite Sirah

Dessert:
2008 Imagery Muscato di Canelli
2007 Imagery Petite Sirah Port
2009 Benziger Muscat Canelli
2010 John Evan Late Harvest Syrah

Etc:
2007 Dr. Konstantin Frank Dry Riesling (from Moni)
2011 Thomas Coyne La Petite Quest

[Trying to see the proportional relation]

the global Warming kept me in summer
Love with you like I was under a
Fermata. Now that the times
Are changing, I feel
Even more for you; or I feel nothing.
I can’t tell; it’s kind
Of scary. I was sick of thinking
About you this morning but
I was listening to Bob Dylan and Leonard
Cohen in order to think about
You for literary purposes.
When I feel nothing for a person
I get scared I’m losing my humanity
And that turning cold means
My heart’s been botoxed: we’re
All fucked.

I am definitely in love with you
As I write this. You are so petty
And superfluous I cannot stand
You.

You are gracious
To accord me the space and time
In which to develop, or to elaborate
Upon, as the French say, these
Extreme emotions I am, despite
The odds and certain lapses,
So capable of feeling.

Your eyes had a way
Of going soft and shiny
When you said the really
Tender things.

I should
Have stayed away cos I don’t need you.
Maybe I don’t need you. But I want
You. Maybe I don’t love you. But
I am getting to know you. Maybe
What made me cry in class was how tired
I was and how sad and hard
It is, and how rare, to undertake an act
That’s truly free, and not just a response
To a confused surge of drives and fears.

How will we function without one another?
surely we know
it’s been done so many times before
passed were numerous days ere our paths crossed

But if one plus one does not equal two
and we both come out of it a little more or a little less than one
or, simply, as different ones
how will we function without one another?

Surely we will survive
at least in my case
for my emotions come violent and intense
they also come cheap

Or is there a soul
capable of deeper human experience buried
beneath the free flowing tears and hastily mended
heart

In this case, I shall ask
how will I function without you?
this is what we are to find out, you said
but I know not how to act before I make up my mind

Decisions are made with my understanding of who I am
my understanding comes from past experiences of myself
but the past is a construct of the mind it blinds us it fools us into believing it
the heart wants to live in the present, the wise man said, look there

I looked.
nothing in view

little girl
wants a pat on the head
and candy

forevermore

The Paradox of Choice

A:
The Endowment Effect
The Loss Aversion

B:
The Liking Bias
The Scarcity Fallacy (Reactance)

I used to read over and over the letters you wrote me when everything first started. I want to be reminded of how we were like, how you were like. That’s what I clinged onto. That’s what kept me going as if it’s the proof of what I wanted to believe.

And then I realized, at long last, that things have changed. You have changed, even before I did. I chose to hold on to words that have long lost their validity, like I always do.

You’re no longer the person who was so very much in love with me. I miss the time when I was not merely a tolerable existence.

And now, my heart aches, reading them, and a drowsy numbness pains my sense.

It fixates on bitter and sweet uncertainties, flips and tosses and over-examines and -analyzes words spoken–all their sanguine implications and somber insinuations. And I ponder over chance encounters which seem so haphazard and effervescent at the moment but which with time will probably take on some semblance of fate. Or not. I’ve lost my handle on me, on the lot of you, on life.

No rest, maybe I’m wicked.

I’d so very much like to be in control again.

I like Frick Collection very very much. Not overwhelmingly huge, every piece of the collection is top choice and put together with purposeful precision and consideration. Every room comes nicely together and each presents a different face. I’m never a fan of Boucher and Fragonard, but the Boucher room and Fragonard room are very impressive. The audio guide also helped me appreciate the works of Boucher more. The interior design of the house fits Henry Frick’s status well but not outrageously fancy. I love that Mr. Frick also likes Franz Hals, and I LOVE his Whistler collection!

Aside from the more popular pieces, I also liked:
Canaletto’s A view from Somerset Gardens looking towards London Bridge
Francis Towne’s The Forest of Radnor, with the Black Mountains in the distance
both are from London’s Courtauld Gallery (I don’t remember seeing them when I was there 2 years ago.)

Arrived at JFK around 7am (EST!), surprisingly not exhausted. Got lost in Central Park, but still came out east side in one piece. At Lady M Confections, servers are very friendly. I had a tiny cup of Latte that costs $6.50 and a slice of signature crepe cake. The coffee, like the cake, was unimpressive at the first taste. But both brought unexpected, pleasant flavors to my palate just when I thought “well, this is probably it.” Fresh creme with a hint of caramel, sweet that makes you happy, yet subtle that makes you giggle like you’ve discovered a secret.

Wiki

Sun
9:00 CBS The Good Wife (9/30) *****
10:00 NBC Do No Harm (mid)

Mon
8:00 ABC Dancing with the Stars (9/24) ****
8:30 CSB Partners (9/24) THUMBS DOWN
9:00 FOX The Mob Doctor (9/17) ****

Tue
9:00 NBC Go On
9:30 NBC The New Normal ***
9:30 ABC Don’t Trust the B—- in Apartment 23 (10/23)
10:00 CBS Vegas (9/25) (Dennis Quaid) ***

Wed
8:30 ABC The Neighbors (9/26) ***
9:00 ABC Modern Family ***
10:00 ABC Nashville (10/10)
10:00 NBC Chicago Fire (10/10)

Thr
8:00 CBS The Big Bang Theory (9/27) ***
9:00 CW Beauty and the Beast (10/11)
10:00 CBS Elementary (9/27)

Fri
9:00 CBS Made in Jersey (9/28) HORRIBLE
10:00 CBS Blue Bloods (9/28) *****

And no one will suspect foul play, since every sign shows that I was suicidal the night I died. No one will question why a seemingly happy and optimistic person would choose to end her life this way. My doctor will offer, “she was suffering from depression because of her job.” Even though I’ve got a new one which I enjoyed most of the time.

But hopefully you will see this (even though I doubt if there’s anyone in my life who is thorough) and find that this is not a suicide note, but quite the opposite.

I’m gonna say goodnight now, and good luck, to you and me.

Die Meister, Die Besten, Les grandes équipes, The Chelsea.

還記得好幾年前, 我的手機鈴聲是歐冠主題曲. Ils sont les meilleures, Sie sind die Besten, These are the champions, Die Meister, Die Besten, Les grandes équipes, The champions. 讓人熱血沸騰的音樂, 我們追求的聖杯.

直到 2009 年五月六日, 當獸巴喊出 Fucking Disgrace, 我也怒火中燒地刪掉了我的手機鈴聲.

本賽季因為雜事纏身, 比賽沒有場場都看. 球隊風波不平, 更讓我不想接觸. 跌跌撞撞地沒想到走到了歐冠決賽, 情勢卻又是如此不利, 已經早早準備好迎接再次心碎了. 開賽哨聲吹響, 我雙手緊握只希望我們能撐住前十五分鐘不被進球. 時間緩緩前進, 雖然拜仁看似來勢洶洶, 但我們緊密的防守, 加上拜仁自己不斷放槍, 我也漸漸不那麼緊張. 直到比賽第八十三分鐘, 我剛好因為沙發旁邊疑似有蟑螂而分神, 心裡一邊抱怨室友都不倒垃圾一邊想著我要把廚房垃圾桶搬到他門口去, 結果就被進了! 這讓我更氣我室友! 然而, 雖然主播都在說大勢已定, 拜仁的球員跟球迷也都差不多準備好在慶祝了, 我心中卻完全沒有絕望感. 不知為何, 我就是知道還有希望, 我們會扳平比分. 結果, 第八十八分鐘, 獸巴做到了. 我在電視前面又叫又跳, 這就是切爾西啊!!!

進入延長賽沒多久, 拜仁就拿到一個點球, 我心裡想著的是 2010 年的 FA Cup final. 我總覺得撲到點球不僅會大大提升士氣, 打擊隊方信心, 更是運勢的指標. 但我還是不敢奢望, 畢竟切赫不是撲點球出名的. 別說 Schweinsteiger 不敢看了, 我也不太敢看啊. 結果, 切赫擋下了點球, 後方的切爾西球迷的狂喜, 我看到我們在往勝利前進.

三十分鐘一下就過去了, 2008 年五月那個令人心碎的下午(還得回去上班)又重現在眼前, 主播們的冷言冷語也讓我很想砸電視, Neuer 的高大身軀以及堅定的神情(我還是很喜歡你雖然你拋棄Schalke 04)讓人覺得希望渺茫, 好死不死還是在拜仁球迷這邊進行點球大戰. 但是當 Olic 的點球被撲出 (Olic 我就知道可以靠你:D), 遠方切爾西球迷傳來的歡呼深深地撼動了我, Ashley Cole 進球後神色鎮定地拍著胸口的隊徽差點讓我飆淚, This is Chelsea. Schweinsteiger 無顏見江東父老, 這時獸巴走向球門, 說真的, 這劇本寫得實在太環環相扣太精彩. 獸巴出腳, Neuer 緩緩朝另一個方向倒下, 球場爆出的歡呼不像只有客場球迷能發出的音量, 這是累積了多少年的等待, 一切都像在慢動作下發生, 又像在快轉, 我不敢眨眼生怕錯過任何一個畫面.

Die Meister, Die Besten, Les grandes équipes, The Chelsea.
這個簽名檔不再是我們永遠在追求的夢想, 它已經實現.