I am Your Sunshine

I got UO's newsletter today… thoush it's denim, I've decide that after I move, I'll go to UO to shop!!
But first I gotta spend my money wisely. I'm kinda over my budget this month

I always sound like such a good, well-mannered kid
I cant help but admiring myself as I speak
ah…

P.D. James – Death in the holy order
張詒和 – 一陣風, 留下了千古絕唱
七等生 – 思慕微微
張系國 – 棋王
莫泊桑 – 她的一生
Einstein – 相對論入門

黃崑嚴 – 黃崑嚴談教養
吳靜吉 – 青年的四個大夢 (這兩本是我媽叫我看的:p)

簡媜 – 夢遊書
劉大任 – 紐約眼
沈花末 – 加羅林魚木花開
鄭愁予詩集一二

圖書館:
愛之逃, 最後文告, 重拾山居歲月, 張看, 星雲組曲, 不朽者, 書店風景
High Fidelity

最近壓力有點大, 生活有點不順, 心情有點小悶

我決定今天給自己放個假 (晚上)
我不要再心煩找房子的事, 不要明明文章都看完了還在逼上無所事事
不因為房間沒收而感到罪惡, 不想到駕照沒換而心神不寧
我要讀讀聖經念念德文品品鄭愁予聽聽清爽的音樂
點起蠟燭, make a night out of it

明天剛好有新的工作, 跟這陣子在做的都不一樣
剛好換個心情

Make a change, at this moment

The cracker Ama gave me is soooooooooo delicious!!!
Only one package left :~

Album 1. Song 6. Посвящение 奉獻
Album 3. Song 1. Улыбнись 微笑吧!
Album 3. Song 5. Аве Мария Ave Maria
永恒的吻/Поцелуй длиною в вечность
你在哪裡我在哪裡/Куда ты, туда я
别安静的如此響亮/Не молчи так громко
不幸/Невезучий
黑夜一半，白天一半/Ночь пополам, день пополам
心跳/Сердцебиение
汗衫短裤/В шортиках и маечке
咒語/Мантра
首都街/Улицы столицы
我相信愛/Верю в любовь
因特網心情/Интернет-настроение
Official Site
Unoffical English Fan siteBe Ware!A fragment of his high pitch Опера 2 Прелюдия will be played automatically when you enter the first page
Опера 2 Прелюдия MV
Listen to His Four Albums
Yahoo Group
Official Site in China w/ lyrics

I hate it.

When I finally made up my mind and it's gone….
endless house hunting :(

but a nice thing is that Susan said I can temporaryly
live with her til I find a place, so I can wait til the
almost perfect place shows up…. It's just that moving is
such a hassel that I'd like to minimize the number…

Very Interesting!

I think he's awesome, and his voice is very infatuating.
and his face and the cleverness shows in his eyes and smile
are all so my type. However, in his live performance, his attire,
the set and the audiences worshiping him when he pitches high made
me uncomfortable. It's got a feel of demon worship. And that stops
me from totally having a crush on him. Cuz we all know that the
devil can be very alluring and it's often wickedly beautiful.
Vitas is really really beautiful!

if you're still interested, please watch this MV instead of the one provided in the article.
簡　介

《onepa#2》

My house is finished building

But I'm alone inside of it.

The door slammed behind my back

An autumn wind knocks on my window

Cries over me again.

Storm at night

Fog at the morning

The sun completely got cold.

Long-standing aches are coming by their turn

Let them gather together.

It's my fate, and I can't ask my fate for anything

I know only that after my death

Winds are going to wail.

房子修好了 可我只有一個人
用背拍一下門 秋風敲打著窗戶
我又要哭了

夜裡閃電 早晨黑暗
陽光完全變冷 過去的痛來了
讓一切都準備好吧

房子修好了 可我只有一個人
用背拍一下門 秋風敲打著窗戶
我又要哭了

這是命運 沒有好運
不管我問什麼 只有我知道
在我之後會怎樣
站在風裡高歌

Features My Chemical Romance, the Used, and many other punk rock band,
but in the end, I decided not to go. One of the reason is that I can't
find people to accompany me, the other is that I dont really have the
mood for loud music right now. So, I throw away another chance to
rock concert. But I dont think i'll regret it as much

說到 Nikita, 然後之前又提到走下坡的 Alias, 讓我忍不住又要拿他們來比較一下.
(哎哎, 說到電視電影我就忍不住侃侃而談, 我媽又要說我只對沒用的東西有興趣了)

當初 Alias 剛出來的時候我就發覺它與 LFN 的相似, 然而又有很大的不同.
相似之處是它們的題材, 不同之處是影集的氣氛.
Alias 雖然充滿複雜的關係跟背叛還少不了打打殺殺, 但總不失歡樂.
(尤其是打殺起來多麼漂亮)
LFN 就沉重多了. 它有多沉我說了太多次就不說了.

而我想這也是為什麼 Alias 如此成功的關係
有懸疑, 有動作, 有drama, 但又不忘給你一點點光亮好讓你不會昏倒在黑暗中.

但是我們走到 Alias 的第四季, 我可以大聲地說, LFN 棒多了!!
Alias, 我陪你行過死蔭的幽谷, 但我可沒力氣救你起來.
你趕快見好就收吧.

(以下是舊文)

The Differences between Alias and La Femme Nikita

這兩部是題材很相似的影集, 但是整個影集的氛圍完全不同。
不過我很愛看LFN, 我喜歡 Nikita 還有 Birkoff
但我一點也不喜歡 Michael! (是怎樣大家都要叫 Michael!?)
至少在我有看得那幾季裡面不會讓我喜歡他
同樣是美女 secret agent 造型多變目不暇己 Alias猶勝,
(這是可理解的, Alias 比較新)
俐落的動作, 很新很炫的科技小玩意
喔不過 (很久沒看LFN了), Nikita的任務好像都是殺人(?)
但 Sydney 的任務通常都是去..well..information related (espionage?)
再來, 跟LFN比起來, Alias感覺陽光了許多, LFN始終有悲傷的氣氛
Nikita好像都是一個人, 唯一比較close的 Michael (不是Vaughn!!!)
也不知道他到底真正在想什麼, 真的對Nikita好? 還是只是在為Section1做事
Sydney卻有許多朋友, 雖然對他們保持祕密有時還是很痛苦
而他還有 Vaughn!!!(這個Michael多棒啊~~) 還有爸爸
不過不過, LFN 有個勝過 Alias的地方
就是 Birkoff – the tech guy :>
he's soooooo cute!
Alias的tech guy哪比得上啊… (sorry, 不可愛的人我記不起名字)
—
btw, 其實我還蠻喜歡Sloane的^^”
—
Dec 11 2003

回台灣時在電視上看到最後一段, 覺得很有趣於是借DVD來看.
裡面每個角色都在文學史上真有其人…
於是我就想到了, Van Helsing 不就是這樣嗎?
然而 Van Helsing 的評價很差, 結果我查了查, LXG 的評價也沒有好到哪裡去
呃…那我怎覺得它好看得很, 該不會其實我也會喜歡 Van Helsing吧?
不會不會不會吧….我相信一定是 Van Helsing 被拍壞了!
光是看 LXG 就讓我想把 LXG 的原著拿出來看 (畢竟通常電影是無法拍出書的三四分好看的)
我還想看 Captain Nemo的故事, 發現所羅門王寶藏的Allan Quatermain的故事
The Picture of Dorian Gray也值得一看, Jeckyl & Hyde 我認識
James Moriarty是柯南道爾筆下的壞人, 有the Napoleon of Crime之稱
Tom Sewyer, 抱歉, 我一向堅持不看, 而 Wilhelmina Harker 是在 Dracula中出現

為什麼我會那麼喜歡 LXG 呢, 我想演員就佔了一大部份原因
Sean Connery 的魅力, 有誰能抗拒?
Peta Wilson 跟我是老朋友了, 一開始就覺得她眼熟,
看了一陣之後終於認出她是 Nikita嘛! (我妹還是看不出來~_~)
只是金髮變成了褐紅髮, 整個人味道就不同了.
她危險 優雅 神秘的氣質, 為整部片增色不少啊.
然而說到優雅, 誰也比不上我們的 Dorian Gray (Stuart Townsend)
(Gossip: It's said that our Mr. Townsend was casted as Aragon of LOTR!!
but left the production before shooting claiming that it was a mis-cast
that he's too young for the role! :p)
一出場他的舉手投足就緊緊地抓住了我的眼睛,
在混亂的槍戰中他氣定神閒地揮著長劍 (反正他打不死)
唉…replay一百次都看不膩

有一幕很好笑, 有個敵人拿機關槍對著他打了幾十槍, 結果一刀被他刺死
臨死前他扒開了 Dorian的外衣看到他正在自己癒合的傷口們, 問, “What are you?”
Dorian 答, “I (pause) am complicated.”
真是太迷人了…

(另外, 意外發現, LXG裡面的壞人M在Van Helsing裡演Dracula)

Mon
22:00 Medium (觀察中*)
Tue
20:00 Gilmore Girls
21:00 Starlet
22:00 Blind Justice (觀察中**)
Wed
21:00 Alias (隨便看***)
22:00 Eyes (premiere next week****)
Thur
20:00 Tru Calling (2 hr season premiere*****)
Sun
21:00 Desperate Housewives
22:00 Boston Legal/Grey's Anatomy (******)

* 上周第一次看, 只看一半, 感覺還不錯. 據說 Allison是真有其人

** 至今已經演了三集, 第二集讓我小失望, 不小心錯過第三集, 待觀察到底值不值得看

*** 第四季非常糟糕, but for old time's sake, 還是繼續看看
他們扮相漂亮地用各種新奇手法打打殺殺到還是可以以看,
不過別想在要我認真看待它的劇情了!

**** 很期待, 不知道究竟好不好看

***** 由我很愛的 Eliza Dushku 領銜主演, 之前在UB時就很想看
卻每次都剛好忘記, 後來那季結束之後聽說就不再演了
還好現在聽說某片停拍所以換 Tru Calling 上, 希望好看!

***** Boston Legal 超好看, 今天看了 Grey's Anatomy 也很棒
所以我不會怪他們拿 GA 來給 BL 墊檔.
但是, 如果你可以把他們擺不同時段, 然後每周都老老實實地各播一集不是很棒

剛都快打完了結果PCMan給我當掉…..

[Finish Reading]最後的樓蘭女

前兩天把睡前書從築草圍城換成最後的樓蘭女,
一來因為最後的樓蘭女是圖書館借的, 早點看完早點還比較好
二來才剛一口氣把不夜侯看完, 從日本入侵的沉重一下跳到共產黨統治的中國
從南方有嘉木裡那樣單純的愛恨情仇到現在牽涉了國家戰爭政治, 太氣悶了.

去年暑假看了他的匈奴, 覺得很好看,
因此在圖書館看到了最後的樓蘭女就毫不猶豫地帶回家.
昨天把它看完, 總覺得少了些什麼
從開頭營造出的磅礡氣勢到最後虛掉了 有點不足, 草草結束的感覺
不過我不怪他, 畢竟結尾真的是超極難寫的東西
寫過東西的人就知道, 不管前面寫得再怎麼順怎麼好, 結尾都還是有可能遜掉.

但是前面真的寫很棒, 有好幾次我都看到禁不住停下來讚嘆
好美啊….
他製造出很美的氛圍, 讀起來好舒服好舒服
所以我喜歡看他的歷史/奇幻小說 :)

還想看的作品: 無限江山, 武靈王之死, 清明上河圖

說來有趣, 歷史一向是我最弱的一科, 不過我又很愛看些歷史小說
我覺得中國五千年的歷史實在是太神秘太吸引人了!
之前還看過洛神, 也覺得很好看!

ps. 茶人三部曲(南方有嘉木, 不夜侯, 築草圍城)又是完全不同的境地了
下次再聊.

女孩板上有人在問說不是女朋友的女生朋友牽他的手, 不知道是怎樣.

對我來說, 牽手是很重大的事.
有人曾說, “女生把手交給你的時候就表示她把心也交給你了.”
(所以不要隨便牽人家的手啊, 是要負責的!)
當然, 我知道這種說法不是人人適用, 但我剛好似乎就是有點類似這樣.
不同的是, 人家是說女生決定把自己交給你(不要想歪)的時候才會給你手兒牽
我卻是….當你牽到我的手, 那你就成功一半了.
不知道為什麼, 牽手很容易讓我意亂情迷, 理智失效.

回到正題, 我實在不太能接受女生(或男生)隨便跟人家牽手,
在我看來牽手是有特殊意義特殊感覺的.
然而話說回來, 還是不少人覺得牽牽手無傷大雅
或是有些人說, 若是他走太慢就會拉他的手
這在我看來也是有夠尷尬的….

看到這兒, 該不會覺得我是只有女生朋友跟男朋友的閉俗花痴小女生吧
(well, 花痴是有點啦 orz)
Nonono…我的男生朋友多如繁星, 而且一堆都是超好的哥們
但我會抓他們的袖子, 拉他們手臂, 就是絕對不會碰到他們的小手心的~
很有趣的是, 他們也不會做出太逾矩的動作 (我指牽手… 倒是有扭打著搶東西過@@)

我在想, 不知道是不是我本身就散發出一種保持距離的態度的關係.
這是我在四年前發現的, 那時我們一群來自各地在Berkeley共渡一個月的人
終於在SFO道別(大部份人都那天走), Yoshi 跟琪道別時他們擁抱了一下
我那時對 Yoshi 有小小一點意思,
還期待說他也會跟我抱一下, 畢竟我跟他的交情跟他跟琪的交情差不多.
結果沒有. (請不要吐槽說是因為他討厭我-_-)
我想我渾身上下似乎散發著跟人保持距離的訊號 (physically)
也因此, 當我要告別美麗的布法羅要來到西岸,
在機場亞先生跟著另外兩位小姐也要抱我一下時
我猶豫了一下, 覺得不太自在…但, 當然又很感動囉 :)

今天一早被某人a怪說沒送生日禮物 然後又被某人b索命連環call因為我把某人b告訴我
的某人c的八卦告訴了跟某人c小有關係的某人d害某人b被罵了然後我就很急地質問某人d
某人d都不說話最後拋一句算我多話就跑不見 後來某人d又怪我害他沒法好好專心準備研
究所考試結果是 今天大家都不高興 都是因為我

我也不高興

and you're mad at me again.

to tell the truth, you're just like her, I can't keep track of your
love life cuz they're too dang complicated.
and yes… again, I always do stupid things when I'm high.
but hey, am I obligated to know all your conds? you rarely
talk to me lately.
I'm sorry for the damages I caused, but………

well i think it's kinda self-centered to say “you know I'm going thru blah
blah how can you blah blah blah”

[Now Watching] It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
會對這片產生興趣, 是因為 Gilmore Girls
裡面 Lorelai 跟 Rory 根本為 Donna Reed 瘋狂.
加上不知在哪看到這片是美國聖誕節必看的片, 讓我更好奇了.

才看了四十分鐘, 感受不到歡樂, 卻有一種蛋蛋的憂傷

有點小氣悶, 尤其這幾天連綿陰雨 然後一直做同樣的事 很煩

(兩天後) 看完了, 很好看的一部片子, 有讓人感動的地方.

不過整部片總體來說還是不怎麼令人歡欣,
也許我對於這種放棄個人理想的事非常不能接受.

或者說…這對我來說是非常嚴重的事!
所以我不懂為什麼這會是聖誕佳片. 並不是說它不好, 它悲傷. 但我看了也快樂不起來.

不過它無疑是部好電影, 也是好看的電影

我大概感覺的出來故事會怎樣進行,
但解決的方法倒是出乎我意料之外, 我一直在期待Mr. Potter忽然良心發現.
雖然說仔細想想, 這比電影裡的方法還要更難.
大概是我實在受不了如此邪惡的人, 跟那種邪惡博士想要統治地球的邪是不一樣的
那種惡是或多或少存在每個人心中的惡.

and that makes me sick.
很奇妙的, 我認知也能消極地接受現實生活中就是有這樣的人,
然而小說或電影裡出現就會讓我極度不適.
也許這些虛構的東西是我的避難所吧.
(連城訣讓我看到想吐也是這個原因…好恐怖)

讓我特別感動的一句話, 是Clarence告訴George,
“See, You have a wonderful life.”
Clarence讓George見到若他未曾出生,
Bedford Falls這個小城以及裡面的人會落入怎樣的光景.
是陳腔濫調沒錯, 但有時你就是需要這樣的當頭棒喝.
不是要你比較, 不是要你看看比你悲慘的人, 然後讓自己感覺舒服些.
而是教你懂得 appreciate. appreciate是多麼重要的一個字啊….

oh by the way, it's a very beautiful movie/story :)

I think I'm a info freak.

My interests which can be related to working (so not books, movies,
music…)are forming. I like to find indo, I like to know about new
stuffs, not necessaryly learn it thru but I'm like crazy for acquring
info, and I like to categorize things.

Since I'm waiting to be picked up, let me talk about Starlet –
WB's new reality show (I don't know if it's a reality show…basically
I don't watch these kinda stuff, such as American Idol, Apprentice, and
etc, but somehow Starlet caught my eye. One of the reason may be becuz
it's brand new. I have a strange tendancy that refuse to watch something if
I miss the beginning. Anyway, starlet is fun to watch and it's not too
time-dragging.)

Last episode is good. Though when panal said that Cecile had a break thru
, I had the feeling that Lauren is the one to go (Yes, they mentioned it,
but some people were still surprised.) The panal show good interest in Cecile
that Lauren with average performance was wiped out. (I guess they prefer
drama.)

And something disturbing is that you tend to like some people and dislike some.
and then you'd hope that the ones you like would stay longer. But it's the
performance that counts. So here goes Lauren and Katie, a biatch, stayed.
However, think of it this way, if Lauren stayed instead of Katie, there
won't be as much drama as it is now. Mercedece had biatch potential, but
after showing her weakness in the bikini incident, she became more humane
and approachable. Oh and by the way, Katie did show great progress, no
doubt about that!

Well, now I guess Mercedes has most Starlet potential, since Cecile and
Michelynne (whom I like most!) aren't actually that good. As long as
Katie loses eventually, I'm happy.

I was viewing Shirley's album. We're going to meet this evening.
Then I linked to my own album and started to view our Orlando pics taken
by Adam. and all of a sudden, I strongly miss them. My dear friends….

It's surprising that how can good times pass so fast.
The three of us always hang together everyday.
(well, every weekend. Mr. Adam is busy like hell)
We'd watch TV, cook, have meals together, and sometimes take a walk along
the beautiful Lakeview Estate (to be honest, I forgot the name).
We'd take some soda or cocktail and chips, and drive to southlake village.
There are several benches along the shore on the back of the apartments.
We'd eat and chat and enjoy the view. Sometimes the ducks would laugh at
Adam with weird quack quack. We'd go to garage sale and buy some fuuny
cheap stuffs, and we'd go to Elmwood for good Italian food, Shakespeare,
or summer Jazz. and the most stupid thing is we'd go to Tops or Wegman in
the middle of the night cuz we're bored and they're the only places to go
except for cemetery, which's always been Adam's passion but we've never
gone.

It makes me angry that so beautiful a friendship should only live for
a year. Yes, Moni and I remain close but Adam is like drifting further
and further away, which makes us sad.