I am Your Sunshine

I feel so stupid for having wasted 4 years on failing or barely passing classes and seemingly not learning anything academic. I’m not saying that I should have studied hard back then. (I’m not saying that I don’t cherish all the moments I spent there with those people I love either.) However, if I could have used that time to have fun (like I had) and at the same time work my ass off and earn some money (if I could. I don’t think it’s not practical.) and study when I’m older, relatively, like now. Cos I have so much better understanding of things now. Give it literature or math or anything, I venture to say. As I was reading my 8-year-old Set Theory text book right now, I was really able to appreciate the simple yet complex beauty of it. I liked the idea of it back then, even though it took me three tries to pass the course. But I am able to settle myself and take in what’s there now. And there are subjects, such as economics, that I wouldn’t think of familiarizing myself with when I was younger and narrow minded. The order of things the society has made for the general public is at least not right for me.

Why does my life switch from one set of routines to another? Why can’t I live broader, feel more and think deeper?

Laziness is my Achilles’ heel.

Gotta do something about it…

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完全找不到資料的一個團.

這個故事告訴我們, 不要取太generic的團名.

Carrie Ann’s like the lion king tonight. Orz
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Woke up in the morning, sort of frustrated, thinking, “gotta return the pillow I bought yesterday. It’s not doing my neck any good.”

Went to school. Took me around 15 minutes to find a space. Walked passed a guy wearing Hrvatska jacket. Took it as a good sign. Wondered if he would find it weird if I stopped him and said “I love your national football team. Niko Kovac is my hero, et cetera, et cetera.”

My Brit Lit: Victoria + Modern teacher was surprisingly young. He looked as if in his late twenties but he had to be at least thirty something. That’s just not right. Caucasians should look older than their actual age. He had two earrings and a punk-ish haircut. He’s nothing like my Brit Lit: Neo-classical + Romantics teacher. He offended at least one of the students in the first 10 minutes. He sure got style. I’m not able to decide whether it’s a good thing or not yet.

We got 20 or so people for Literary Magazine this quarter. (I decided to take it, even though it drove me nuts to read some really crappy works. Nevertheless, the experience in all was rather pleasant and rewarding.) Most of the people seem nice and willing to contribute to the magazine. But I’ve grown cynic by the end of last quarter. We’ll see how many will stick around two weeks later.

That’s about it. Off to cook my second dinner.

Thr
BOA
HSBC
Spanish
COMCast
TAX
研究星期五行程

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上次整理我的 wine collection 是超過一年前的事了, 之前是有一些進出, 不過我實在太懶惰了都沒有記. XD

今天進了五瓶, 是該更新一下了.

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這兩天花了好多錢. orz

因為乳液用完了所以得去買, $42/50ml (比我以前慣用/現在停產的 $60/40ml 便宜多了 XDDD)

因為要幫 rere 買 B&BW 的身體乳, 我自己也買了一瓶 (買一送一嘛… 還幫貓買了兩瓶沐浴乳) $23

這周末要帶 Jeff 與 Jim 去 NAPA, 於是想先買瓶白酒冰好, 午餐時可以喝. (不想買overpriced 的加州酒 XD) 於是趁還沒有漲稅之前趕快去 Wine Club 一趟. 然後, 當然不可能只買那一瓶啦. 最近正覺得平常沒有酒可以開很討厭 (手邊的酒都只剩下我捨不得喝的 XD) 當然要進一點貨, 花錢花得很心虛就是了… 最後總共買了五瓶, $82. (我已經盡力不挑貴的酒了. 有一瓶義大利忘記是什 麼varital 的白酒 $19 跟一瓶 $24 的 Barbera 我都好想要啊… T^T)

然後因為買了酒, 就買了牛排… XD
(另外又補了 linguini, 前陣子剛好吃完. 星期四可以做 seafood linguini 配 Spanish white. 剩下的再帶去 Napa 給他們喝. 哇哈哈哈)
grocery $14

So so at the beginning but very fun towards the end.
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呼….

考題讓我很是挫折. 其實半個學期以來, Romanticism 一直讓我很挫折. 直到最後讀完 Frankenstein, 回過頭來想想, 發現自己似乎抓到了那麼一點 Romantics 的神髓, 並且好像能夠分辨 Wordsworth 的溫和與 Coleridge 潛藏的熱情, Shelley 的自在與 Keats 的深刻. 結果考試時發現, 怎麼還是每個都看起來一樣.

最最可惡的是錯把 Shelley 當 Keats. 更別說那三題不知從何下手的申論.

莫再提.

今天天氣很好. 是說加州哪天天氣不好了. 下午帶著 The Abstinence Teacher 到了 Santana Row, 在 Valencia Square 邊看書邊聽現場音樂表演直到傍晚溫度漸漸轉涼. 其實也不過待了不到兩小時. 但 Borders 不知為何很擁擠吵鬧, 於是打道回府. 心裡微微不安覺得跑這麼一趟實在浪費油錢. 不過轉念一想, 有曬到太陽, 而且我本來就不打算逛街買東西的, 其實這樣也很不錯.

sloppy at the begining but there were some hot dances.
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All the whores and politicians will look up and shout “Save us!“… and I will look down and whisper, “No.”

B+

A super-powerful non-human, a smart narcissist, a charming villain, a lonely poet, a babe, and a dork who has a secret crush on the babe.

The moral of the story is…
the dork can get the babe (after she’s done with the superman).

Okay, be serious. I like the movie. But I have to get the part I don’t like out of my head before I can talk about it. Frankly I was sort of disappointed at Zack Snyder, who brought us the magnificent 300 three years ago. Connections between scene were sometimes awkward and obstructed the flow of the movie, and the pace was sometimes, just sometimes, not right. I guess it was too complicated a story comparing to 300 and it’s hard to fit so grand a story into 160 minutes without making it seemed fragmented. However, the music selection was great; combined with visuals, it’s a feast in itself. The scene where the Comedian dies was heartbreakingly beautiful. Throughout Nat King Cole’s Unforgetable, the Comedian embraced his fate, fought and was overcome. The smiley face stained with a drop of blood fell into the crimson river next to his body; My Heart Aches. After their spontaneous superhero-save-the-day play act, Night Owl II and Silk Spectre II made love to Leonard Cohen’s Hallelujah, which was made famous by Jeff Buckley’s cover. Wagner’s Walkürenritt (The Ride of the Valkyrie) righteously strung their victory of the Vietnam war. Jimi Hendrix’ All Along the Watchtower walked with Night Owl II and Rorschach into Ozymandias’ “base”. Nevertheless, The Sound Of Silence at the funeral scene was a little bit cheesy even for my taste.

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I dived into the warm mist of old poetry
humid and caring and
warm
mist that won’t suffocate
your voice
nor give you chill
dancing goosebumps

tiring mind from a drying essay
writing. the skeleton of our misgiving world
play on words and synonyms
oh God bless synonyms

basic elements are lacking
I know, yet fatigue took over me
so I dived into the warm mist of old poetry
whine with Charlotte Smith.

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看完 Watchmen 又讓我想起我對 hardboiled detective 跟 film noir 的熱愛啊…

簡介
主角是在一個為了利益不擇手段的大科技公司 Veridian Dynamics的 R&D 部門的其中一個研究團隊的頭頭.

其中一個女配角 Andrea Anders 是之前 The Class 裡面的 Nicole, 我還蠻喜歡她的. :)
另外 Ted 的頂頭上司是 Portia de Rossi, 我覺得她的角色非常有味道. 她去年跟 Ellen DeGeneres 結婚 :p

定位是 sit com 但 pilot 沒什麼讓我笑出來的東西, 不過我還是蠻期待的, 畢竟三個主要角色我都喜歡, 現在就要看角色之間的化學作用能不能出來了.

Your state of mind, or rather your attitude towards a person, really determines how you perceive things (regarding to the person).

I’m sorry for being utterly ungrateful and, more importantly, mean.

They really weren’t bad stuffs, and we all can see the heart in it. It’s an awful shame that it was the heart that I didn’t want. Therefore, I regarded them altogether as… well, unwelcome.

i’m sorry i’m bad, i’m sorry you’re blue

tonight’s show was very enjoyable. It’s pretty unusual for early episodes.
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昨天煮完菜鍋蓋沒有拿起來, 結果等鍋子冷掉之後鍋蓋就黏住了. 我試著用熱水沖鍋底, 結果還是無法. 剛剛想說沒辦法只好拿到爐子上熱一下囉. 結果我做一做其他的事, 又忘全把鍋子忘掉了… 是肚子餓想去烤土司聞到燒焦味才發現. 我趕快把電爐關掉, 這時果然鍋蓋非常輕鬆地就可以拿起來了. 可是我心情好糟… 是貓特地托人帶來美國給我的好用貴鍋子耶. 希望焦的只是昨天殘留在鍋裡的東西. /_\