New year, a new start.
I was told to do something I'm very reluctant to do.
But after quiet down, talk to a few friends for a period of time.
I learned to accept where I am, and I'm willing to try my best to accomplish the goal that was given to me.
and I'm also starting to step out and learn to serve. I think it'd be a great to help me grow.
So I'm really looking forward to this year.
Hopefully God will lead me and I'll listen. :)
A year is not very short when you actually think of it.
How am i supposed to live thru this year.
its' so easy just talks
if i wanna bail out, i should do so before they spend money on me :(
I so hate grwoing up
Jan 7th, 2005 by Ashley
I so wanna resist….
I so wanna run away….
I wanna resist everything that's coming toward me, coming at me…
I don't want you to control my life.
anyone of you.
If I cannot control it, I'd rather give it to God…
(I know that's kinda disrespectful to say…
Yes, why does the future of Taiwan seem dark and hopeless?
Let's put politics and all that crap aside, and talk about history. (What!?)
(Yeah…me + history!? Hahaha…)
This traced back to one time in Buffalo Bill's class. Jason asked a question about the relationship
between China and Taiwan, so I took the chance to answer him. However, unfortunately, I was still
not very comfortable talking in English and my knowledge (ok, the grade I got) in history is horrible
(if you knew me long enough you should know.) But I was so sick and tired of people's (Non-asian)
misunderstanding. So I went to him and said after class…”Actually, China belongs to us.” (faint)
I guess he thought I was joking. Well, I was not. You may think I'm too well-educated by kmt, but I
do believe so. It's a pity that I couldn't explain to him more clearly, but then again, American don't
study history and geography, don't need to expect too much from them. (However, I went out with
my classmates once…and I remember it was in Applebee's. They surprised me with quite good
world knowledge. I was so impressed. But I think it's just us, the program…ha) What I really wanna
express is that we (our government) were the authority of mainland china, but unfortunately we lost
the war, so we are now trapped in this small island. But how should I explain this to them, they're
Shu Dee Ju Yee people, I don't think they'd understand. It's so winner is the kingm loser is the “co”.
And it's so awkward being a “co”.
So, what's so dark about all this?
I didn't think of a proper example until I talked about this with Moni….
and what did I think of? South Song. We're just like South Song!! And what happened to South Song?
Gone. (Of course, or where do Yung, Ching, ROC and PRC come from.) At the moment I thought of
this, I felt despair and hopeless. You see, history tells you things…it tells you how things go. But then
Moni reminded me that this is exactly why we're looking for international recognition. Yes, it's not
ancient time, and whatever you do, people are watching. So we still have hope…though our position
IS awkward.
Next time, I'm gonna explain the whole thing clearly to the ignorant Axxxxxxxs, if I gotta chance.
I just remember what I thought of the other day, when I was talking a shower….
I wanna go back to Taiwan!
Not just for vacation, but permenantly (not necessarily permenantly either =p)
It seems that the reason I so wanna stay in the States was disappeared, or… I almost forgot the reason why I
eagerly wanted to stay (or did I?)
Now, I dont think I really wanna settle down in the states, though I just discuss the future of taiwan with moni
which is very very dark and hopeless. (That was something interesting, I'd post it under another category)
US is not so much a heaven to us as it is to people from mainland china. Come on, having hot water is an
extravaganza for them. (No hard feelings, it's just what my roommate/from china told me.)
Life is so hard that I almost burst into tears
(i'm not compaining… feeling lost, that's all)
Jan 7th, 2005 by Ashley
Shirley , our engineer vp, came to pay a visit just now, so I didn't finish last post and I've lost
the feeling so nevermind.
What she told me was creepy, but all that I said was “yes…yes…” and noded. I'm such a chickenshit, but
I don't wanna make anybody feel uncomfortable (so I only made myself uncomfortable… I'm gonna run
away some day – not too far.) Aside from programming for intranet, and doing some network
administration, which is not 100% what I oughtta do with my fabulous MI degree, but acceptable,
she told me that I should get my hands on development…. Gosh, this is not an “Information Specialist”
do, is it? I'm not an engineer! Not a bit! If I were to be an engineer, I'd have studied EE or CS. Now,
what's going on!?
I feel so awkward. I want my control of my life back! I'm definitely not going to be an engineer, never!
I really should've study literature ro something like that… then there's no way people can land their
hand on me. Just talking…(I AM grateful for what they offer)
I'm just afraid that I'll accidentally lose my life in this. Creepy.
Jan 7th, 2005 by Ashley
Maybe it's because we had a day off on Mon (Jan 3), and I took a day off (shh…) because of my
still-lasting metralgia, this week seems flying by so quickly. Already it's Friday.
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This is very very abnormal.
It is the forth day, and I still exprerience pain…not only in my uterus, but in my head too.
Both of them are not normal, I slept well but my headache didn't go away;
I didn't drink something cold (well, I did, the first day…. just a little bit ahh Q_Q), and my uterus
keeps squeezing.
Come on…don't torture me plz…
Jan 7th, 2005 by Ashley
玫瑰園的奶茶譜
1.四匙奶精、一匙奶粉、400cc水煮到滾。（一般的咖啡量匙）
2.加入糖適量再煮到滾。
3.溫壺、溫杯，用上述煮好的奶水當成一般熱水來沖泡茶葉。
4.將茶葉濾掉之後淋上兩圈蜂蜜。
補充：
1. 我覺得照他這樣的比例，泡出來太濃了耶，所以我的比例大概是一般吃飯的碗，三碗半至四碗水，三匙奶精、一匙奶粉。奶粉我用脫脂的。
2. 茶葉的話，則用strength較強的茶，比如Whittard的肯亞茶，或錫蘭UVA，要不然一般的Assam也可以。最喜歡UVA的了，味道真的好棒，不過茶葉比較貴，肯亞茶也不錯而且價格比較便宜一點。
3. 奶精我是用「荷蘭奶精」，裡面的成分是玉米糖漿較多，好像沒看到有標示椰子糖的成分（前陣子不是有網路傳言說奶精中的椰子糖漿不太好嗎？不知道是不是真的？）。我覺得「荷蘭奶精」用起來比「三花」好耶，也比一些加味的奶精來的純粹。
4. 其實可以加一些其他糖漿（果露），如知名的法國果露商MONIN的果露，像橘皮果露就很不錯，可以用來取代蔗糖的使用。有一家茶店就用Dilmah的茶+奶精+MONIN果露，取名為香榭奶茶。還不錯呢。
5. 雖然有很多花樣可變，不過我還是比較喜歡加蔗糖而已，蜂蜜阿、果露阿只是偶而加或是有客人來的時候才用，自己喝的話，還是prefer味道乾淨一點的奶茶。
真的要謝謝那個玫瑰園的小姐，透露出這樣的食譜，雖然看起來也滿簡單的，但是真的不容易呢。以前自己看書或是亂嘗試，都泡不出這麼好喝的奶茶。以前大都是茶沖好後，才加入奶精或鮮奶或奶油球，味道實在是有差。也曾經try過用鮮奶來煮奶茶，可是其實鮮奶不適合煮到沸騰。諸如此類的小小的一些關鍵，靠自己嘗試還真不容易突破…. ^^;能自己煮的好處就是，濃淡自己可以調，而且又經濟實惠，嘻嘻
pete
目前玫瑰園的茶我個人覺得最優的是愛爾蘭奶油茶~~
他拿來做奶茶奶味更重!!
做法是：
用鍋子裝350CC的水和四大匙奶精、一大匙奶粉，加兩圈蜂蜜後煮滾，再倒進裝茶葉的茶漏泡5分鐘就行了!!
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Jan 7th, 2005 by Ashley
I literally drink this while growing up. Not chocolate sensational, but milk chocolate with marshmallow
by Swiss Miss. Mom always buys this, and whenever it is cold or we're in pain, a cup of hot chocolate
can always warm our body and heart.
After I came to the States, I found that there are more than one flavor! Ever since I tried chocolate
(or chocolate sensational?), I can't go back to milk chocolate…it's too sweet and light. Now, my fav
are sensational and caramel…which is hard to find.
gotta go chocolate hunting again. hope I can find some good stuff.
Jan 7th, 2005 by Ashley
(Fremont Area)
Minh's的地址如下：
1422 Dempsey Rd, Milpitas, CA 95035
Phone: (408) 956-1000
似乎星期二或三不營業
(SF Area)
Cha Cha Cha (Tapas / Carribean)
1801 Haight St. @ Shrader St. (East of GGP)
Tart & Tart (dessert, cafe)
641 Irving St. @ 8th Ave (South of GGP)
Rotunda (Neiman Marcus 舊金山店內的 cafe 喝下午茶 欣賞街景)
http://www.rotundarestaurant.com/
150 Stockton Street
San Francisco, CA 94108
http://www.xoxtruffles.com
Try Chef Jean-Marc Gorce 's chocolate truffles.
You can buy it at Neiman Marcus at Union Square.
Whole Foods Market
1765 California Street
San Francisco, CA 94109
Tel: 415.674.0500
It's the second day (or I should say the third), and it still hurts!
why why why… ><
我發現我越來越會裝乖了…
雖然說還是不大會對長輩進對應退, 不過裝乖的段數是越來越高.
有的時候裝到自己都覺得…哇勒我還真假~
不過, 對老人家本來就要有禮貌嘛~ ^_^
Jan 4th, 2005 by Ashley
12/21 (tue) moni come, went to eat Maccoroni.
12/22 (wed) moni went to uncle's place for dinner.
12/23(thu) we went to Christmas in the Park in downtown San Jose.
had dinner @ the Grill, saw Ice Rink, decided to go some other day.
12/24 (fri) went to Santana Row and Valley Fair; went to ROLCC for Christmas special service.
12/25 (sat) went to Moni's uncle's house to see dog. was gonna ice skating but too many people!
lounge bar in Fairmont hotel.
12/26 (sun) church, and moni goes to SF for camp.
12/29 (wed) moni back. had dinner @ ching jan yi tel long
12/30 (thu) had lunch together @ small liu ching jou, ???
12/31 (fri) had dinner at Wok City, went to Peggy's place for new year's eve
1/1 (sat) had chinese breakfast @ ching jan yi tel long, buy some stuff @ Ranch 99,
and accidentally spent the afternoon @ Great Mall; was going to Ice skating but tired.
1/2 (sun) church, went to Berkeley, raining the whole day :( had dinner @ applebee's
1/3 (mon) went to New Park Mall, and rained again, went home with Mission Burger.
I was so tired so I slept the afternoon -_- dinner @ tainan small eat
Jan 4th, 2005 by Ashley
I was so proud of myself that I rarely do things I'd regret. Pity, maybe, but not regret.
But lately, I sense that I'm actually feeling regret for some things I did or didn't do.
and my temper is getting worse. I become more and more impatient to people around me.
I'm like living backwards.
since last year, I keep regreting for things. people came to visit me and I didn't treat them well as
they deserved, and then felt very very bad and only can hope that they did have a good time. :(
I dont wanna live like this!!!
I just realized that we didn't take any picture this time….
I'm such an idiot!
cheers! to the alcoholics :~
