I am Your Sunshine

當她又說了一遍 “你不要想那麼多.”
當誰又唱起 “It’s all in my head, it’s all in my head.”
我想起黛玉的幽幽怨嘆, 那麼飄又那麼沉.
everyone’s wronged me, everyone’s failed me.
在小室裡揚起百轉柔腸的輕煙, 踏著步眼眶泛淚.
我想我真的是像她, 靜坐窗邊翻著書頁思緒裊裊盈升.

而站在小室外清澈月下你知道有些是真確有其事有些卻全然出自想像,
如此哀戚, 又是何苦來哉?

重讀紅樓夢, 也許又會有番不同滋味.

(還先得有人願意幫我運來才行… orz)

什麼東西必在地球旋轉時從北美洲逸到西歐又流到台灣.
集體沮喪像一個噴嚏傳染了開來.
我們靜坐室內, 或在急駛車中搖開車窗想要抓住一點自由一點屬於春天特有的愉悅.
低潮如濃霧降下壓抑著你的呼吸, 而她臉上風乾的淚仍在哭泣.
屬於秋季的委屈為什麼在這初春憂憂戚戚地襲來,
你吟著歌吟著你流轉的心思意念, 清晨卻像利刃劃過你不再鎮定的容顏,
你們都靜靜地不作聲, 獨自承受品嘗消化排解那痛那受挫哀傷的情.

必定是有什麼東西在空氣中, 只擊打易感的神經.

It’s not monday blue, but the blueness of the sky made me wanna cry. Or maybe it’s something else.

But as I stepped out of the office and into my car, the sun shined gloriously, brightened me up by pouring the pollinic warmth on my face. RW screamed everything’s broken there’s nothing to break from the stereo. Oh that voice, been my companion for more than 10 years, gave me a sense of home. Safe and warm. Isn’t that the most important thing?

Food and music are essential.

And I got #11 for my takeout. It must be a good day.

Let the sun shine in, face it with a grin :)

jealousy flowed in the air, infused a dense smell of corrupted acidity
everyone busy circling and declaring territories
she’s pushed away. she’s the sacrifice.

and the morning cuts you like a knife

tears ran down her cheeks as Kevin Griffin’s voice grinded through her nerves
all of a sudden she realized she’s put in this odd number situation again, in which she’s always the one left out.
this wave of melancholy hit her by surprise and she was striken down mercilessly like a flower in the storm and there was even a faint smile on her face not yet faded
she stayed quietly in the back of the car, scenary ran by so fast that she couldn’t catch her breath. “it’s uncalled for.”

and they say it’s all in her head.

小組賽結束後隔了整整兩個月才來十六強第一腳, 我完全忘記 ESPN 2 每一腳會挑兩場播, 所以上周也只是呆呆地看網路電視. 剛查了一下發現下周 ESPN 2 會播利記對 Barca, 如我所料, Match Day 2 播的則是 Man Utd 對 Lille. 我對曼聯興趣缺缺, 不過利記與 Barca 交戰是一定要看一下的! 兩個球隊都是我們近幾年的冤家對頭, 看他們相殘也別有一翻趣味. (還有一個要點是, 因為 Chelsea 與這兩家碰頭太多次了, 所以對他們也比其他球隊還要來得更熟悉, 因此看他們的比賽也會更有意思.) 不知道誰會出線, Barca 第一腳在自家輸了, 看來兇多吉少.

另外因為要查賽程而跑到 Barca 板看, 發現除了他們的死對頭 RM 之外, Chelsea 在他們賽程表上唯一有用顏色表示的球隊耶! XD

You know you have that influence on people, but you also know there are some who couldn’t care less. You were clueless about her intention but it struck you all of a sudden. You seemed to realized what she meant. You felt comforted. She still cared about you after all. But then you thought it’s likely that you are as clueless as you were before. You don’t ask. She doesn’t say. Broken communication which long seize to exist. You don’t plan to restore it; nevertheless it’d be fun to know.

為了這次出遊排出了三個 playlists, 分別是不同的風格. 連排序都用過心, 索性把歌單拿出來讓大家共享之 :)

[快版]
Butch Walker – Maybe It’s Just Me
A Lot Like Love 原聲裡我最喜歡的一首歌, 除了好聽之外他的歌詞也對我別具意義.

The Fray – She is
特意不挑 How to Save a Life, 因為我不想作出一張電台主打歌專輯, 而且 She Is 本來也是 The Fray 這張專輯中我最喜歡的一首歌.

The Delays – You & Me
The Delays – Valentine
The Delays – Hideaway
連續三首 The Delays, 因為我都很喜歡, 無法取捨. The Delays 與 Hope of the States 跟 Fratellis 都是我去年最後一兩個月發狂似地拼命聽的團, 到現在還是喜歡的不得了. 當然要放上來.

Fratellis – Whistle in the Wind
第一次是在 Virgin UK 聽到. 有些歌就是有辦法讓你初聽就愛上.

Fratellis – Ole of Black n Blue Eyes

Blondie – Maria
這首就是老歌了, 也可以算是我的 all time fav 之一.

Cake – Stickshifts and Safetybelts
愛死 Cake 這首歌, 非常三八可愛. (當然我最喜歡的還是 Mexico 跟 Never There. 其實如果你夠細心的話, 大概可以發現我喜歡的歌是有跡可尋的… 不是指曲風旋律喔, 我是說歌詞.)

Guster – One Man Wrecking Machine
好吧, 我放了一首電台主打歌. 不過最近電台都在放他們的 Satellite, 就讓我作弊一下吧. 這首也是可愛風的 :)

Prozzak – Strange Disease
相較起來也算是有點年紀的歌了. 真不想承認啊. 第一次聽的時候是1999年夏天在 Jasper 的小木屋裡. 我愛上加拿大樂團也是從他們開始. 又一首三八可愛的歌唷!

The Magic Number – Love Me Like You
indie 小品, 清新風.

Badly Drawn Boy – Born in the U.K.
討厭, 我發現最近聽的歌之前明明都寫過介紹了. 自己往前翻吧!

Creed – Higher
好! 老歌再一發. 非常喜歡有力道的 Creed. (忽然發現我這個 playlist 風格並不一致啊… orz 其實我是照吵度與速度來挑的 :p)

H.I.M. – Killing Loneliness
H.I.M. 的分類一向很具爭議性, 一方面也是因為他們專輯與專輯之間 (甚至是歌與歌之間) 都可能有很大的差別. 對我來說他們的音樂有點偏 metal. 我也聽 heavy-metal 或 gothe 的喔! 而且他們的 metal 非常浪漫風!

Hope of the State – Blood Meridian
以前寫過了, 請自己翻 :)

Sugarcult – She’s the Blade
又是令人愉快的 punk 喔!

Wheatus – Teenage Dirtbag
這首也有點年紀了. 這麼多年來我一直還是很喜愛這首歌. 又是一首… 三八可愛的歌 XD

Fictional – Friday I’m in Love
超老歌喔! (不過我比較喜歡另一個團的版本)

Prozzak – Europa
Prozzak 聽說是有點被分在 electronica, 我其實不喜歡電音的. 但怎麼可能不愛 Prozzak 呢?

天啊, 太晚了. 有空再來寫第二個 playlist

不是說前陣子拿了姓名無用與全美反對(AAR)來聽嗎?
今天在車上開始聽起姓名無用, 這個本地 punk rock 樂團 (是的, 他們在 San Jose, CA起家的唷!) 第一首歌就讓我心情馬上輕盈了起來. 這樣青春洋溢的音樂, 實在無法想像他們在我才剛上小學時就出道了. Keep Them Confused 走的是輕鬆愉快的 pop-punk 路線, 是我熟悉的曲風, 但又不會一成不變的無趣, 每一首歌都像鑽入這一條小巷, 下一個山洞, 柳暗花明後的涓涓細流… 等等, 別誤會了, 我說的是聆聽經驗像是一個個年輕的冒險, 而不是曲風. (若是形容曲風的話那他們應該是個 indie 團吧!)

我發現自己不聽這種我以前總愛暱稱為小朋友樂團的音樂好一陣子了, 大約有一年多吧. 以前 punk rock 當中的”小朋友樂團”是我最喜歡的次類型音樂. 代表團有 Busted, Simple Plan 的第一張專輯, Bowling for Soup, Our Lady Peace 等等. 但過去一年我整頭栽進 alternative rock, 把 punk rock 束之高閣, 也許年紀漸增, 也許生活不再那麼無憂無慮, 各種壓力襲來, 只能隨著鋼琴與清爽乾淨的吉他用吟詩般的細細傾訴來撫慰心神. 在閒暇的時間裡, 也只想放開每一顆細胞, 讓自己散落一地, 沒有力氣跟小朋友們一起蹦蹦跳跳了.

很高興我又重新發掘了 NUFAN, 再度找回我對 puck rock 的熱愛. 對生命對音樂的熱情被拉著你的手對你叫著 “來一起玩啊!” 的愉快音符撩起, 用純粹的聲音喧洩對社會的質疑對愛情的不確定對家庭的挑戰對友誼的宣告…

indie 對我來說還是太小花小草, 太兒戲了. punk rock 萬歲.

ps. 我真是喜歡姓名無用這個團名, 讓我想起以前很愛看的天地無用　＞//////＜

昨天去了 Milpitas 那家, 結果竟然只有 Football 2007, 連 World Soccer 都沒有 (三月號不是應該出來了嗎?) 也沒有 Punk Planet :(

今天吃飯經過就順道去 Fremont 那家. 發現它除了二月的 World Soccer (就是封面是 C羅那本) 之外, 竟然還有 FourFourTwo, FIFA, Shoot! 以及… Inside United (沒錯! 曼聯官方雜誌 orz)

以後要多去 Fremont 那家晃晃 :D

現在我了解怎麼樣叫做越拖越長了! 我終於竟然到會越拖越長的境界啊! (感動淚)

接下來就是要如何言之有物了, 沒有內容我相信會被批得很慘的… 即使是被人家在心裡面批我都無法忍受的!!><

As I was going through my Language category this evening, I came across the Economist style guide, which apparently I haven’t got to.

I planned to print out some of it and to read it later at Border’s or at home. I came acorss this, and I couldn’t help but finishing it right away.

check it out if interested.

subscribe to word of the day. this should more or less increase my vocab. (lazy people’s way to language)

einfach
(adj.)(adv.)
facile, frugal, simple, simply, easy, plain

Das ist einfach. (it’s a piece of cake.)
Du musst den Film einfach sehen.
Es ist einfach nicht wahr.
So einfach ist das.

What a useful word!

比較一下, 左邊是一年前照的, 右邊是最近 (兩年前的照片就不放了, 唯一有的一張超亂的… XD)

DVD 明顯的變多了, 還多了一些旅遊書跟樂譜, 書的話大概只多了幾本.

話說前陣子有人看到我的書架便發出讚嘆說 “好多書啊…”
我聽了不知如何反應, 這樣的份量, 在我台北的家中連塞牙縫都不夠吧.
只是因為這幾年在外流浪, 不敢讓自己累積太多家累, 以免搬遷不易.
每次回台灣 (加上有人從台灣來看我) 除了進新貨之外, 也會帶一些已經看完覺得近期內不會想再看的書回去.

A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett was is one of my favorite childhood read, along with Das Doppelte Lottchen by Erich Kästner, Ivanhoe by Sir Walter Scott, The Scarlet Pimpernel by Baroness Emmuska Orczy, Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë and etc. I remembered when I was in elementary school. Everytime I went to the library, I’d dig out Das Doppelte Lottchen (and a picture guide of mushrooms. Mushrooms mezmerise me since I was little.) and I owned four other books at home. Those are the books I never get tired of reading, even though I can almost memorize every little detail. It’s always a pleasure to revisit the stories. All the fun, exciting, touching moments flow with black ink on the paper into my imagination. Good times.

So I checked out A Little Princess from the county library because 1) I just wanted to watch it again and 2) I wanna see if I grew to be too jaded to be touched by something that once could touch me.

It must have been over 8 years since the last time I watch the film. I found that the way I approach a movie has changed, my ability to perceive a film in a grander scale and multiple angles advanced. I’m able to appreciate it in different aspects while still feel the simple joy, the innocence and strength the story tried to convey. There were parts of the movie didn’t go as I expected (details that doesn’t really affect the storyline.) It seems that I have the book and the movie mixed in my memory. The words were branded in my mind profoundly and transformed into image and after 10 years they are still fresh and clear.

And I don’t think I was aware of how beautiful they made the movie. The entire 97 minutes were a grand gratification. If you know me well enough, you’d know that green is never my color. But in the movie, the vast deployment of green and other earthly colors made the story from head to toe fairytale-like. No wonder it was nominated for Academy Awards for Best Art Direction/Set Decoration and Best Cinematography.

I’m gonna get the DVD. =D

今天在燒周末出去玩路上聽的 CD, 其實我一向不燒合輯的. 我要嘛就是在電腦上依當下心情挑歌聽, 要嘛就是買 CD 放在車上或公司或偶爾在家裡聽. 一來我討厭單薄的只有油性筆隨便寫上的光碟, 我如果要片子就要正版的, 有殼有內頁這些雜七雜八的東西. 二來我不同時候想聽的歌想聽的順序不會一定, 燒成片子對我來說非常浪費, 也許你要說那正版 CD 不是更沒有彈性, 然而大部份的歌手樂團 CD 中的歌曲順序是有它的道理的, 因此我不介意那樣聽, 畢竟隨時跳歌或換片都還是在我的掌握之中.

但這次我要配合其他乘客的可能喜好, 分散風險是比較合理的. 但沒想到… 我第一張還是燒了 No Use For A Name 與 All American Rejects 完整的兩張專輯 orz

回到主題, 在挑歌的當中我拿 The Fray 出來選, 放到這首 Heaven Forbid 的時候忽然發現這首歌的感覺與唱腔跟 Keane 好類似啊! (不過我還是只挑了我最喜歡的 She Is)

(planned to finish my Oscar post in one piece but apparently the pretty women took too much space. )

It’s Ellen DeGeneres’s first time hosting the Academy Awards. Some had doubts in her but having watching her 2005 Emmy, I didn’t think she’d screw it up. She might not be spetacular as her predecessor (here, I’m referring to Billy Crystal, not Jon Swetart, of course), she wouldn’t bring disaster, either. Turned out that she was actually quite good. The jokes were funny (not too dry for the Hollywood people to understand or apprecitiate) and nothing inappropriate. Job well done, Ellen!

I wondered if it’s because they got bashed for cutting winners’ speeches (especially Ang Lee’s) in rather rude manners last year, they were afraid to rush winners when giving acceptance speeches. The ceremony dragged ridiculously long which made us have no choice but to give up our reservation at Melting Pot. But in all, it was a enjoyable evening.

進入正題吧!
首先, 恭喜女王 Helen Mirren 眾望所歸拿下最佳女主角, 得獎感言很棒. :)

You know, my sister told me that all kids love to get gold stars, and this is the biggest and the best gold star that I have ever had in my life. I want to share my gold star with my fellow nominees, those brilliant, brilliant actresses who gave such amazing performances this year. I also share my gold star with the filmmakers, with Stephen Frears, with Peter Morgan, with Andy Harries and all the producers and all the filmmakers and the cast. Thank you.

Now you know for 50 years and more, Elizabeth Windsor has maintained her dignity, her sense of duty, and her hairstyle. She’s had her feet planted firmly on the ground, her hat on her head, her handbag on her arm and she’s weathered many, many storms, and I salute her courage and her consistency. And I thank her because if it wasn’t for her, I most, most certainly would not be here. Ladies and gentlemen, I give you The Queen. Thank you. Thank you very much.

El Laberinto del Fauno (Pan’s Laborynth)贏得 Best Achievement in Cinematography, Art Direction and Makeup 但是最佳外語片輸給 Das Leben der Anderen, 這是意料之中, 雖然我還沒看. 最佳電影配樂輸給 Babel 就有點不可理喻了! 拉小琴了不起嗎!? 除了 The Good German 我還沒看過之外, 我不相信其
他三片會沒有一部比得上 Babel 的.

賀Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest 拿下最佳視覺效果. 我真是愛死這集的海產!!

我沒有看 Departed, 所以似乎不應該亂作批評. 然而我沒看是有原因的. 明明就是翻拍, 卻忝不知恥地抱走最佳影片, 最佳導演, 最佳改編劇本 (我們說, 他應該得最佳翻譯吧!)與最佳剪輯. 然後隨隨便便地提一下這部電影是改編自一部香港電影, 連片名 Infernal Affairs (無間道)都沒有提. 很多美國朋友都對 The Departed 讚不絕口, 我只叫他們去租無間道來看. 但我也很懷疑在文化差異之下, 他們究竟能不能理解故事中人物行為的原因, 如果在他們看來覺得莫名其妙, 那自然好看不起來. 這也就罷了, 最令人討厭的是大部份的美國人在稱讚 Departed 精彩絕倫的時候, 根本就不知道那是部翻拍電影, 也許還在為了”美國人”的原創性自得不已呢.

對男主角提名者都沒有什麼感覺, 但我還蠻喜歡 Whitaker 的得獎感言的.

Jack Black 諧星三人組的表現也不錯, 也多虧有 Jack Black, 不然我應該無法忍受看那麼久的 Will Ferral.

其他… 想到再補充.
還算是個不會太無聊的頒獎典禮, 雖然實在是拖得太～久～了～

Chelsea v Portmouth (會有小 Niko 耶!)
3/3 17:15 即是 10:15 PST

平常早得跟什麼勁, 害我得周末七點起來或是三四點起來!
為什麼偏偏要在我會出去玩的一天那麼晚比啦!!!
這不是註定我看不到比賽嗎? ＞＜

We are the Champions!!!

(這周末太忙了, 竟然連如此經典賽都沒記一下.)

聯賽盃冠軍賽, 對手是死敵兵工廠. 剛開賽其實我方有點悶, 12分鐘時 JT 失誤被 Walcott 進一球, 雖然很洩氣但比賽還有 80 分鐘, 沒什麼好擔心的. 果然在第 20 分鐘 Drogba 用類似的方式進了球 equaliser, 槍手只爽了不到十分鐘. 然而比賽還是悶悶地進行到了中場休息. 大家期待老大的中場休息室訓話能夠轉換下半場場上的氣氛, 沒想到第 58 分鐘一陣混亂都還沒搞清楚發生了什麼事, 只看到 JT 倒在地上動也不動, 重播還看到他落地時的抽搐. 隊醫們(Arsenal 與 Chelsea的)神速衝到 JT 身邊, 大家站在一旁非常擔憂. 花了六七分鐘才把 JT 的頭頸固定好送下場, 全場觀眾起立鼓掌致敬. 之後幾乎都沒心情看比賽了, 直到第 83 分鐘, Drogba 以 JT 的招牌頭球攻進 Arsenal 大門, 得分後衝到場邊對著觀眾橫空用手指劃了好幾次 26. 這樣悲壯又熱血的 Chelsea, 不愧是我深愛的球隊. 在電腦前跟著現場觀眾以及 Chelsea 板上的大家一起又哭又笑, 我們心裡懸著 JT 的傷勢, 又因反超 Arsenal 而興奮不已. 比賽進行到九十分鐘, 裁判宣佈加時七分鐘, 其實很擔心在這七分鐘內又生變數, 我可不希望我們的球員再撐個三十分鐘延長賽, 相信大家都只想奔到 JT 身邊. 沒想到, Arsenal 完全不想把握寶貴的七分鐘, 在加時第四分鐘, 因為 Mikel 犯規 Toure 不爽, 兩人推來推去結果演變成全場大亂鬥. 場面混亂到幾乎都分不出誰是來打架誰是來勸架的了, 最後連 Mourihno 跟 Wenger 都跑出來. (我只看到 Mourinho 在努力把球員分開, Wenger 看起來是出來散步的.) 這場比賽最後拖到一百多分鐘才結束, 裁判總共發出了七張黃牌三張紅牌. orz

不過可喜可賀的是, (除了拿到本季第一冠之外), 鐵人 JT 竟然在當晚就回到球場跟大家一起慶祝…

[updated] 差點忘了一件事! 大混鬥時鏡頭忽然照到倒地的 Bridge, 我還很擔心他是怎麼了! 沒想到事情的真相竟然是…
見此
Eboue 見穿灰衣服的人轉身就馬上撲倒在地是怎樣 =_=

Jake @ CaughtOffSide commented on someone saying the fans threw “all kind of things” when Fabregas took the corner.

all kinds of things – it was celery!!!
which was also thrown at Robben when he took a corner, and, when we won the league last year was thrown all over the place with Chelsea players throwing it back into the crowd

用想的就覺得是很好笑的場面! 我們真是個有趣(!?)的球隊.
看看這個就知道了 orz

Chelsea TV 新作

69th Academy Awards was by far the most meaningful award ceremony for me. I’m sure I’ve watched the Academy Awards ceremony before, but the 69th remained in my mind after so many years and is still considered one of the best award ceremony ever.

It was in 1997 and Billy Crystal was the host. It was a year which we celebrated films like: Shine, Jerry McGuire, Fargo, The People v.s. Larry Flynt, Primal Fear, The Mirror Has Two Faces, The Birdcage, Romeo + Juliet, Evita, Independence Day, The Rock, Twister, Daylight, Star Trek: First Contact, One Fine Day, That Thing You Do, Up Close & Personal, Emma, The Hunchback of Notre Dame, The First Wives Club, and the biggest winner of the year – The English Patient. (Because I was rooting for Shine, I still haven’t seen The English Patient and I dislike Ralph Fiennes for a really long time.) Putting down the list brought me back to the time which seems so long ago yet so close and dear.

but enough history.

It was a long night last evening, the ceremony itself dragged over 3 and a half hours, and we also devoted 2 hours prior to the ceremony to watch the red carpet (switching back and forth from E! to ABC and chanel 11) cos we were all stuffed after having Dim Sum at Li Yu Men and there was nothing better to do than crashing on the futon with our stomach full and nitpicking about how the stars looked.

My favorites
Cate Blanchett – she is the definition of elegance. always classy, never goes wrong.
Helen Mirren – the queen looked fabulous in creamy colour. wonderful hairstyle. just perfect.
Jessica Biel – Simple is the key.

My not-bads
Rachel Weiss – she seemed to have lost quite much weight! Anyways, she looks stunning in her retro flair.
Cameron Diaz – though she’s on the top of my least favorite actors/actresses list, I have to say she looked charming in her brunette wind blown carefree hair and the dress is ok.
Reese Witherspoon – I don’t get this trend of going straight. Reese in long straight blonde looked lifeless. However, her dress was impecable. love the layers.
Naomi Watss – yeah her dress was really weird. But it’s Naomi Watts! She’s so pretty! love her hair and necklace.
Nicole Kidman – she’d make my fav list if she get rid of the thing on her right shoulder.

My horribles
J Lo – she looked like a help. However, I think the dress would look divine on other people.
Penelope Cruz – what’s with the skirt? looks like a kitchen cloth or bathroom rug.
Eve Green – I believe her gothe look was to match with her co-presentor. But didn’t she know that she can actually change before she presents? what a pity. She looked lethally pretty in Casino Royale.
Kirsten Dunst – horrible

先記一下