I am Your Sunshine

asked me to post and then ignored me.

why? i’m at too high a level?

i dont like the feeling of losing control. that’s why i stop with t when we were about to get close. and now i’m losing it again. can i not step away too quickly? i think it’s the …i need to break.

今天開了上禮拜買的 Sauvignon Blanc.
一直對 Sauvignon Blanc 沒什麼深刻的印象
喝過是一定喝過, 總是不知道我究竟喜不喜歡

由於我沒有真正的白酒杯 :(
(以前買的 flute 留在 Buffalo 啦)
將就拿喝冷飲用的淺藍玻璃杯(至少不是塑膠杯啊~~),
所以沒辦法好好的看他的顏色, 不過似乎蠻淺淡的.
一開始聞起來有一絲類似 Chardonnay 的香味,
讓呼吸了一下之後, 裡面的清清果香開始散發出來
杏桃的味道, 聞起來又有點像淡一點的 Riesling 了
第一口喝下去, 感覺也有點類色清淡一些的 Riesling.
入口微刺稍酸後味略苦
沒有麼甜, 沒有那麼突出, 就像是文文靜靜的小家碧玉
放了越久, 果香越明顯, 就像之前一支讓我聞不釋鼻的 Riesling 一樣
聞得舒服, 一點也捨不得喝掉.

好….算是普普的一支酒 (後味太苦了啦).
我還是期待 Che. St. Michelle 的 Riesling 好了 :~

I got in touch (well, sort of) with some old acquaintance recently, and by chance discovered something about somebody of whom I didn’t intend to remind myself. But seeing how differently they acted made me cant help but wonder how one can be so cruel.

Fantacies has long gone, but that face still resembles the prototype of my flavor and brings back old dusty memories. But one thing I know since long ago is that one wouldn’t necessarily be behind all the time cuz people stop, people go backwards, and people change. I won’t be the one who’s always behind. I grow, I get, and I reflect. Yes, I might still not gonna face the people. But sometimes being mature is about letting go.

The Scarlet Pimpernel by Baroness Orczy

小時候很喜歡的故事之一
大概是次於撒克遜英雄傳的程度

紅花俠是英國女作家 Baroness Orczy於1905年發表的.
主要敘述十八世紀末期（1790年代）的法國大革命期間, 一個見義勇為的英國貴族，為了拯救許多面臨被送上斷頭台厄運的法國百姓，率領另外一群志同道合的夥伴，不斷的潛往法國，化身為一位蒙面的俠客，每次解救任務成功，總是留下一朵紅花為記，因此人們稱他為「紅花俠」（「Pimpernel」是一種草本植物，有人翻譯為「紫蘩簍」，也有人翻譯為「海綠」，花朵有各種不同的顏色，其中包括猩紅色）。暴戾的法國統治者對他恨之入骨，決心查明他的真正身分，將他剷除。他們知道，這位「紅花俠」是個英國人，而且是個貴族，因此指派一位演藝人員出身、曾經替他們擔任「間諜」、如今已經嫁給一位英國貴族的法國女演員負責這個工作，為了要脅她，他們還逮捕了她的哥哥。這位女演員不為所動，反而親自潛返法國，喬裝成一個妓女，設法搭救哥哥，結果也遭到逮捕。最後，「紅花俠」終於露面，解救了兄妹倆，而她才發現，原來這位英勇的神祕俠客，竟然就是她那平常看起來好像是飯桶、只會逗王公貴族開心的丈夫。

(資料來源:)

之前因為要買傲慢與偏見,
而發現 BBC也有把這個故事拍成 mini seires.
可是圖書館只有 VHS 沒有 DVD
所以我沒辦法借來看看到底拍的好不好
值不值得買
(像劫後英雄傳就拍的超難看, 還好我沒買)
除了 BBC 的 3 Volume series之外
這個故事前前後後據說總共被翻拍過至少七次
英國美國都拍過
最常見的版本是 1934 年由 Leslie Howard主演的

後來因為發現 Linda Eder 唱過很多好聽的音樂劇
所以就找起她的 CD
才又不經意地發現 Scarlet Pimpernel有音樂劇耶!!
天啊…
我覺得有點心痛
因為我想現在一定沒在演了,
就像 Gershwin的 Crazy for you一樣
今天去圖書館借了 original broadway cast recording的 cd
一邊覺得很好聽的同時一邊找資料
結果發現原來這部音樂劇的音樂是 Frank Wildhorn寫的
而他就是寫變身怪醫 (Jekyll & Hyde) 的音樂劇的人!!
哇~ 我快要變成他的 fan 了
他寫的音樂怎麼都那麼好聽啊!!

另外, 這齣音樂劇雖然沒有在 Broadway演了
不過還是有在巡迴中
但是當初在 broadway的評價是毀譽參半
如果我大老遠穿過北美大陸去看結果失望了怎麼辦
(or大西洋)
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I feel that I’m more and more capable of doing my job, and my area of strength starts to show and function.

My third story is about death. When I was 17 I read a quote that went something like “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself, “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “no” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important thing I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because almost everything–all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure–these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

When I first watched this episode, I felt heartborken for Leo. But at the end of the episode, there’s the sunrise on the horizon that washed away the feeling of sorrow. It’s the power of hope and goodness.

However, when I watched it again with commentary, the feeling aroused again and was more distinct because this time I was less puzzled and catched details which I missed the first time. Therefore, when President Barlet gave Leo his Christmas present touched me even more deeply for the love between them is huge and moving. Like they said in the commentary, it’s a love story between Leo and Jed and it’s beautiful.

There’s something else not related to the story worth noted. The shot of the series… how they manage to bring a fragment from another one. It’s all naturally done with elegance. I’m now limited by the language I can use. Perhaps I can talk more when I get home.

Tuesday night, cheap movie night.
(not that the movie is cheap, but the price is cheap.)

Due to the schdule, we decided to see Fever Pitch which I didn’t have a great interest in seeing. I’ve seen the trailer several times. It’s quite funny but I don’t think it’s my type and the guy seems a bit annoying and I dislike Drew Barrymore for her never-changing acting. But the movie turned out to be surprisingly good. It’s funny in a witty way. No overactings, or low jokes. Drew Barrymore’s acting is not irritating. I can really tell that she’d improved a lot. The only major flaw is the connection between each segment is roughly done. Maybe it’s because the West Wing I’ve been watching had done the job beautifully. And I kinda disagree with the ending that RS got the world championship. It’s not that I’m against Red Sox. No-no! I’m a not-too-small Boston fan all right. But it seemed artificial to make it happen in the movie. Then again, it’s either the Red Sox loses again which would be a downer, or not talking about Red Sox game after they get back together which might seem weird cuz it’s a Red Sox movie. So I guess it’s the best ending they can come up with…

Pepsi green tea is kinda gros :~

這集非常撼動人心
著眼在 Leo 出庭作證, 關於總統在競選時 collapsed
還有他再次酗酒
並且穿插著競選時的片段
我喜歡這樣時間一邊進行著又一邊告訴我們過去發生我們所不知道的大事小事
總統跟 Leo 的感情, Josh 想要維護 Leo 的用心
Sam 雖然不清楚原因, 仍盡全力幫忙
在這個團隊裡面深厚的信任讓人嚮往
而個人的脆弱以及彼此的感情就更讓人動容

是的, 裡面世界還是太過理想
不過若是世界上每個人都能夠有顆柔軟的心
這個世界真的會很美好很美好

I’m emotionally disabled.

The other day when I was watching a touching TWW episode, I suddenly found that I’m like the kinda cold-blooded murderer who are somehow easily affected by those artificial intened-to-make-you-cry shows.

was like a period I tried to bury.

I couldn’t wait to begin a new life without the mistakes I made in the past. I was ashamed and felt humiliated, and I was too young to deal with those issues. Now when I look back, I realized that I gave up many precious things…

An only child
Alone and wild
A cabinet makers son
His hands were meant
For different work
And his heart was known
To none —
He left his home
And went his lone
And solitary way
And he gave to me
A gift I know I never
Can repay

A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldnt wait
He earned his love
Through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand.

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul —
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
Im just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.

My brothers lives were
Different
For they heard another call
One went to chicago
And the other to st. paul
And Im in colorado
When Im not in some hotel
Living out this life Ive chose
And come to know so well.

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go —
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, pap, I dont think i
Said i love you near enough —

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul —
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
Im just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.

People you love will turn their backs on you
You’ll lose your hair
Your teeth
Your knife will fall out of its sheath

Dont know why, this fragment of Cake’s The End of the Movie from album Pressure Chief keeps wandering in my head.

The rest of the song

But you still don’t like to leave before the end of the movie
People you hate will get their hooks into you
They’ll pull you down
You’ll frown
They’ll tie you and drag you through town
But you still don’t like to leave before the end of the movie
No, you still don’t like to leave before the end of the show
People you hate will get their hooks into you
They‘ll pull you down
You‘ll frown
They‘ll tie you and drag you through town
But you still don‘t like to leave before the end of the movie
No, you still don‘t like to leave before the end of the show.

Mr. C came to me for something and we talked a bit~~~~
I’m like flying~~~ He’s so cute!!!!!! :D
Thanks my boss for going home early~

My boss’ wife gave birth to their first daughter Emily last week, and today it’s the first day he officially showed up in the office since he had the baby. And man, you should see the glow on his face. He must be thrilled about the baby.

Why am I so sure? You wouldn’t think he’s that happy because he’s back to work, would you?

Life is finally worth writing about. Last week, Jean of Buffalo came to San Jose to visit her aunt. I was eager to set a date with her when I first discovered her being in the area, cuz I haven’t seen her since last Sep. I don’t know where to take her (shame on me. I’m not familiar with the are yet.), and a lunch or dinner seemed not enough. Therefore, I asked if some of my co-workers (singles, around the same age as I) wanted to sing KTV and have dim sum during the weekend. It turned out to be like a small company gathering, but fortunately Jean wasn’t frightened by all these people. Anyway, we had a great lunch in Oakland, and then went to Richmond for KTV. On the way, Jean told me the story which I dared not ask when it happened. I felt heartbroken for her but I was so bad at reacting. (“reacting”! not to say comforting!) But she’s such a wonderful girl with so much life in her, and the journey is still long.

After singing, Mr. Y (our apploud-worthy driver), Ms. C, Jean and I went to Santa Clara and had an awesome korean dinner. :D

[auto comment] What!? You called this worth writing about!? It’s only singing and eating. You pathetic blah blah blah….
[auto reply comment] Don’t be too harsh :~

Mickey3D
Saw this MV on Na’s blog. I was mezmerized by the power of this music and amazed to find that music French produced is not necessarily soft and lazy. They have good rock too! (Okay, I know it’s stupid. Rock is universal.) But I think the real reason that I’ve rarely paid attention to French music is because of the language. Though I dare not to say I understand German songs well, at least I usually get the big picture. Some basic vocabularies also allow me to browse German site and to discover more bands and singers of similar types or genres.

Sometimes I’m really grateful for what I’ve been eduacted with
There are so many things I might not understand, or simply just don’t
get as much as it’s supposed to be
if i hadn’t known those seemingly irrelevant things

I dont know about other majors
but i guess the chance you know what LN is is rather low
if you’d not had a background in law or journalism
and you didn’t study abroad

my gratitue is fairly simple
Thanks for all those who (and what) had educated (informed) me
of anything that allows me to enjoy TV more comprehensively